Forgive Me. Amanda Eyre Ward

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СКАЧАТЬ He wore a jacket that read STEAMSHIP AUTHORITY. There were two patches on his jacket: an American flag, and his name, JEFF. Jeff was sweaty and had a pimple in the center of his forehead. He sprayed the cleanser and wiped it away.

      “Gwen told me your wife, um,” said Nadine.

      The old woman began patting her dog and talking to it. “We had a wonderful morning, didn’t we?” she said. “You saw your friend Austin, didn’t you?” The dog, like Hank, did not respond.

      “Gwen told me your wife, well, went on a Carnival Cruise ship… this can’t be true…”

      “No,” said Hank, “it is true. We went on the cruise together. It was a theme cruise.”

      “I don’t want to ask,” said Nadine.

      “ ‘Bring Back the Zing,’ “ said Hank, staring at Jeff, who sprayed and wiped.

      “Pardon?” said Nadine. “The zing?”

      “You heard me,” said Hank. “It was for couples. ‘Bring Back the Zing.’ It was my idea.”

      “Oh, Hank,” said Nadine.

      “I’d been working around the clock. I knew Maryjane was unhappy. I thought that maybe if I got far enough away, I could shut off. I could… talk about her, pay attention to her.” He rubbed his forehead with his fingers. “I got us tickets on ‘Bring Back the Zing.’ We were supposed to make love from Miami to Bermuda.”

      “But Gwen said… and again, this cannot be true–”

      “Oh it’s true,” said Hank. “Hercules Kalapoulou.”

      “Hercules?”

      “You might ask yourself, as I did, why a divorced Greek businessman booked a room on ‘Bring Back the Zing.’ But Maryjane didn’t ask any questions. When the cruise was over, so was our marriage.”

      “I don’t know what to say,” said Nadine.

      “I went back to the ER for a year, and then decided I wanted a quieter life. A small community. I guess I wanted a home. Falmouth needed a generalist And that’s the story.”

      Nadine shook her head. “Wow.”

      Hank nodded. “I suppose I can see the humor in it now,” he said, one side of his mouth turning up. He continued to look out the window. Nadine couldn’t tell if he was seeing Jeff or the water beyond Jeff. The glass did not look any clearer.

      “I’ve never been on a cruise,” said Nadine.

      “So I sold my place in Falmouth after a year,” Hank said, forging ahead. “I rent a condo now. And I bought the house on Nantucket. It has a fireplace. I love it out here.”

      “You love Nantucket, too, Mario,” said the woman next to them. She was talking to her dog again. “Don’t you, Mario? Don’t you love Nantucket?”

      A man with red hair walked by. There was a comb in his back pocket. “Aren’t you a good boy?” said the woman, scratching her dog’s belly. “Aren’t you a good, good boy?”

      “So that’s my saga,” said Hank. “What’s yours?”

      “Oh, you know,” said Nadine.

      “No,” said Hank. “I don’t.”

      “Well,” said Nadine, “what have you heard?”

      “Jim Morgan’s daughter,” said Hank, sitting back in his seat. “Difficult as a kid. Crazy in high school. Always looking for trouble. Ran away with a guy who came through town on a Harley-Davidson. Called her dad from Sturgis, wanting money to come home.”

      Nadine smiled. She had met Sammy after the Senior Dinner Dance, which had been held on a spring Saturday night under a tent overlooking Old Silver Beach. Tiny white lights twinkled along the edge of the canvas fabric, and the temperature was a perfect seventy-five degrees. The strains of “Wonderful Tonight” played as Nadine’s date, Liam Baker, spun her too fast. Over his shoulder, Nadine saw a girl she barely knew crying by the punch bowl. She saw Lily dancing with Dennis, trying to look happy as Dennis, too drunk, staggered around the parquet floor.

      “This is perfect,” whispered Liam in Nadine’s ear. Poor Liam, who thought they would get married and stay on Cape Cod forever. Suddenly Nadine couldn’t bear it: Liam’s overpowering cologne, the crying girl, Lily pretending so fiercely. The sun set, an orange orb, and the gap between the reality of imminent heartbreak all around her and the cheery illusion of a perfect summer night was too wide for Nadine to straddle. She twisted free of Liam’s embrace and ran. She ran until her legs wore out, and then she sat on the back porch of someone’s empty summer house and watched the stars. She fell asleep on a teak lounge chair.

      In the morning, walking home, she saw Sammy parked by the side of the road, smoking a cigarette. He was short and ugly. He was real. When he offered to take her for a ride, she accepted. As they sped around the Sagamore Rotary and then over the bridge toward freedom, Nadine pressed her cheek to his leather jacket and held on tight.

      “Oh my God,” said Nadine. “Hank, who have you been talking to?”

      “Wrote about the biker underworld for the school newspaper. Wins some contest–”

      “The Young Writers’ Fellowship,” murmured Nadine.

      “Heads to Cambridge, never looks back. Turns out she’s not just crazy, but brilliant.”

      Nadine smiled and looked at Hank. “I hang out at The Captain Kidd,” said Hank. “Jan the bartender went to school with you.”

      “Jan Hallnet.”

      “Yes.”

      Nadine looked down. “Did he tell you about my mother?”

      Hank didn’t answer. An older man wandered by, leading a sheepdog on a leather leash. The sheepdog stopped next to Mario. “Who’s this?” said the man.

      “This is Marlo,” said the woman.

      “This is Roady,” said the man. The dogs sniffed each other.

      “So,” said the man, “how old is Marlo?”

      “We don’t know,” said the woman. “My daughter rescued him from a farm. They were going to shoot him. He ate the eggs and scared the chickens. Maybe around eleven. But he acts like a little puppy.”

      “Roady here is five,” said the man. “I got him from a breeder in Wellesley.”

      “Don’t you?” said the woman. “Don’t you act just like a little puppy?”

      Hank moved close to Nadine. She could smell him, and it was a comforting smell, like butter, like gingerbread. “No,” said Hank finally. “Jan didn’t tell me about your mother.”

      “Oh,” said Nadine. A woman made her way to the bathroom, sipping from a bottle of beer. Jeff moved to another window. The sun broke through a bank of clouds and spilled across the waves. Nadine leaned СКАЧАТЬ