The Day I Died. Polly Courtney

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СКАЧАТЬ slumped on the only available stool at the end of the bar and tried to concentrate as the barman pulled her pint. The pub was packed–or, at least, one end of the pub was packed. Like prayer mats, all seats had been turned to face the giant screen and there wasn’t a man in sight not staring upwards. Jo leaned forwards on her arms, relishing the warmth and the hubbub and the shouting. There might even have been people here who were more inebriated than she was.

      ‘Th’nil-all,’ the barman lisped through the gap in his teeth. Jo smiled politely and sank into her pint.

      The jigsaw was fitting together, slowly, but Jo didn’t like the image that was materialising. The Buffalo Club was a lap-dancing club. She was a stripper. Less than two weeks ago, she’d been making a living by taking her clothes off for strangers. Jo gulped down more beer, repulsed. Presumably she’d been doing it for the money. Perhaps she’d been in debt. Perhaps Roxie was still in debt, she thought. Maybe it was a good thing she had died. It was like an extreme way of declaring yourself bankrupt–declaring yourself dead.

      Another good thing had come out of this, she realised–amongst all the bad things. At least now she knew that she hadn’t been partying with her mates on the night of the explosion. Jo–or rather, Roxie, or Rebecca or whatever her name was–hadn’t lost any close friends after all. Unless, of course, her close friends had also been strippers. Which they might have been.

      Strippers. Jo closed her eyes, picturing Saskia Dawson’s profile picture: the Bambi eyes, the bottle-blonde hair, that pout. Of course. What other profession involved looking so superficial, so flirtatious? Jo wondered how close they had been. The Facebook conversation gave her an idea, but you couldn’t read much into a few lines of text; after all, Jo hadn’t been telling Saskia everything, so maybe the converse was true too. Maybe they’d only just met, and that was why she had Saskia’s name on her hand. Or maybe they’d been best friends, chatting backstage before they went out to get naked. She just didn’t know. Jo beckoned the barman over.

      ‘Thirsty, eh?’ he said, grabbing the empty glass with a look of approval and filling it up. ‘There you go. On the ’ouse,’ he said with a cheeky grin that might have been attractive on someone less flabby.

      Jo tried to thank him and found her words came out in all the wrong order.

      ‘I should probably be warning you of the risks of irresponsible drinking and such like,’ he said.

      She tried to fix him with a look that said ‘leave me alone’.

      ‘But, tell the truth, I like a girl who can sink a pint.’

      Jo claimed her free drink and looked around for an alternative seat. She briefly considered settling on the carpet amongst the legs of the avid fans but decided she was marginally safer at the bar.

      Perhaps she’d been a student, thought Jo. Students were always short of money. That would explain the stealing. That would explain why someone like her had turned to stripping. She swallowed more beer. What was she thinking? Someone like her. As if she knew what she was like. She was making assumptions about herself based on what? Gut feeling? Hope? The fact that she had a reasonable grasp of English grammar and spoke with a middle-class accent?

      She reached into her plastic bag and drew out her notebook. The fact was, she didn’t know what she was like. It was quite possible that she wasn’t actually a very nice person.

      Suddenly, a tremendous roar filled the room and Jo felt glad she hadn’t opted for a seat on the floor. Men cheered, footballers cartwheeled and pints of beer spilled all over the place.

      ‘One-nil,’ said the barman excitedly. Jo nodded as though she cared.

      Buffalo Club = strip club

      Needed the money?

      Friend(?) Saskia

      ‘You a journalith, then?’ asked the barman, peering at the book.

      Jo turned the page quickly. ‘No,’ she said. ‘Just…writing a shopping list.’

      She was impressed at her quick-wittedness, given the amount she had drunk. This pint would be her last, she decided.

      ‘You causing trouble, Den?’ yelled a coarse voice from across the bar. Lumbering towards her was a large man in a dirty white vest. ‘Is he causing trouble?’

      Definitely her last drink, thought Jo, shaking her head politely and realising that her head was actually resting on her arms. She sat up.

      ‘She’s writing a shopping lith,’ explained the barman.

      ‘Oh, very organised,’ chuckled the man, leering over Jo’s shoulder. ‘Chips,’ he said, nodding. ‘My missus always forgets them.’

      Jo glanced at his belly and decided he was lying. She shut the notebook and slipped it back in her pocket.

      ‘What’re you drinking?’ asked the fat man.

      ‘Hey, she’th got a pint,’ said the barman. Clearly Jo didn’t get a say in the matter.

      ‘It’s nearly finished,’ argued vest man.

      Jo looked down. It was true. She was nearly through her second pint. She had to slow down. ‘I’m fine, thanks,’ she tried to say, although it came out as ‘phalanx’.

      ‘Come on, let me buy you a drink,’ pressed the man.

      It was then, as the man leaned sideways and gave a sort of nod of encouragement, that Jo saw it again. She saw the guy at the bar. She felt him tap her elbow. She heard him ask what she wanted to drink. Only this time–and maybe it was the alcohol doing funny things with her head–it was much clearer. She could see every line on his face. She could picture the rows of expensive spirits behind the bar, even hear the throb of the music in the club. And this time, the memory didn’t stop there. She knew what happened next.

      ‘You all right?’ asked the barman, squinting at her anxiously.

      ‘Yeah,’ she said quietly, trying not to lose hold of the memory, feeling the blood drain out of her face. ‘Where are your toilets?’

      Locked in the cubicle, slumped on the lid with her head in her hands, Jo closed her eyes. Her head was spinning and she felt as though she was on a boat in stormy weather.

      She remembered accepting the offer and choosing a vodka martini–an expensive drink, as the club dictated. Wow, it was coming back to her. The man had pushed the glass towards her and then moved closer himself. He’d smelt nice. Expensive aftershave. She had smiled seductively, the way she’d learned to do, and then asked him a question. Something mundane. Nothing personal. Jo fought to hold on to the image as she marvelled at how much was coming back.

      She had led him away from the bar. He’d settled in one of the leather chairs in the corner of the club. He was shy, she thought. Probably not a regular. She’d started to dance, gyrating a little, nothing special–then something had happened.

      Jo ground the palms of her hands into her head, trying to remember the details. It was hazy now, though. She couldn’t picture the scene. Just voices. Shouting. And those alarms, the frantic noise. There was panic everywhere. She thought she remembered struggling with the straps on her shoes, scratching at her ankles so she could take them off and run, but it СКАЧАТЬ