Ray Bradbury Stories Volume 2. Ray Bradbury

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      ‘Destroyed!’ The woman sobbed. ‘My poor sister. Cancer, the doctor said, her dead in a month! And me with mouths to feed! Ah, God, if you had just a penny!’

      I felt my wife’s arm tighten to mine.

      I looked at the woman, split as always, one half saying, ‘A penny is all she asks!’, the other half doubting: ‘Clever woman, she knows that by her underasking you’ll overpay!’, and hating myself for the battle of halves.

      I gasped. ‘You’re …’

      ‘I’m what, sir?’

      Why, I thought, you’re the woman who was just back by the hotel with the bundled baby!

      ‘I’m sick!’ She hid in shadow. ‘Sick with crying for the half dead!’

      You’ve stashed the baby somewhere, I thought, and put on a green instead of a gray shawl and run the long way around to cut us off here.

      ‘Cancer …’ One bell in her tower, and she knew how to toll it. ‘Cancer …’

      My wife cut across it. ‘Beg pardon, but aren’t you the same woman we just met at our hotel?’

      The woman and I were both shocked at this rank insubordination. It wasn’t done!

      The woman’s face crumpled. I peered close. And yes, by God, it was a different face. I could not but admire her. She knew, sensed, had learned what actors know, sense, learn: that by thrusting, yelling, all fiery-lipped arrogance one moment, you are one character; and by sinking, giving way, crumpling the mouth and eyes, in pitiful collapse, you are another. The same woman, yes, but the same face and role? Quite obviously no.

      She gave me a last blow beneath the belt. ‘Cancer.’

      I flinched.

      It was a brief tussle then, a kind of disengagement from one woman and an engagement with the other. The wife lost my arm and the woman found my cash. As if she were on roller skates, she whisked around the corner, sobbing happily.

      ‘Lord!’ In awe, I watched her go. ‘She’s studied Stanislavsky. In one book he says that squinting one eye and twitching one lip to the side will disguise you. I wonder if she has nerve enough to be at the hotel when we go back?’

      ‘I wonder,’ said my wife, ‘when my husband will stop admiring and start criticizing such Abbey Theatre acting as that.’

      ‘But what if it were true? Everything she said? And she’s lived with it so long she can’t cry anymore, and so has to play-act in order to survive? What if?’

      ‘It can’t be true,’ said my wife slowly. ‘I just won’t believe it.’

      But that single bell was still tolling somewhere in the chimney-smoking dark.

      ‘Now,’ said my wife, ‘here’s where we turn for O’Connell Bridge, isn’t it?’

      ‘It is.’

      That corner was probably empty in the falling rain for a long time after we were gone.

      There stood the graystone bridge bearing the great O’Connell’s name, and there the River Liffey rolling cold gray waters under, and even from a block off I heard faint singing. My mind spun in a great leap back to December.

      ‘Christmas,’ I murmured, ‘is the best time of all in Dublin.’

      For beggars, I meant, but left it unsaid.

      For in the week before Christmas the Dublin streets teem with raven flocks of children herded by schoolmasters or nuns. They cluster in doorways, peer from theater lobbies, jostle in alleys, ‘God Rest You Merry, Gentlemen’ on their lips, ‘It Came Upon a Midnight Clear’ in their eyes, tambourines in hand, snowflakes shaping a collar of grace about their tender necks. It is singing everywhere and anywhere in Dublin on such nights, and there was no night my wife and I did not walk down along Grafton Street to hear ‘Away in a Manger’ being sung to the queue outside the cinema or ‘Deck the Halls’ in front of the Four Provinces pub. In all, we counted in Christ’s season one night half a hundred bands of convent girls or public-school boys lacing the cold air and weaving great treadles of song up, down, over and across from end to end of Dublin. Like walking in snowfall, you could not walk among them and not be touched. The sweet beggars, I called them, who gave in turn for what you gave as you went your way.

      Given such example, even the most dilapidated beggars of Dublin washed their hands, mended their torn smiles, borrowed banjos or bought a fiddle and killed a cat. They even gathered for four-part harmonies. How could they stay silent when half the world was singing and the other half, idled on the tuneful river, was paying dearly, gladly, for just another chorus?

      So Christmas was best for all; the beggars worked – off key, it’s true, but there they were, one time in the year, busy.

      But Christmas was over, the licorice-suited children back in their aviaries, and the beggars of the town, shut and glad for the silence, returned to their workless ways. All save the beggars on O’Connell Bridge, who, all through the year, most of them, tried to give as good as they got.

      ‘They have their self-respect,’ I said, walking my wife. ‘I’m glad this first man here strums a guitar, the next one a fiddle. And there, now, by God, in the very center of the bridge!’

      ‘The man we’re looking for?’

      ‘That’s him. Squeezing the concertina. It’s all right to look. Or I think it is.’

      ‘What do you mean, you think it is? He’s blind, isn’t he?’

      These raw words shocked me, as if my wife had said something indecent.

      The rain fell gently, softly upon graystoned Dublin, graystoned riverbank, gray lava-flowing river.

      ‘That’s the trouble,’ I said at last. ‘I don’t know.’

      And we both, in passing, looked at the man standing there in the very middle of O’Connell Bridge.

      He was a man of no great height, a bandy statue swiped from some country garden perhaps, and his clothes, like the clothes of most in Ireland, too often laundered by the weather, and his hair too often grayed by the smoking air, and his cheeks sooted with beard, and a nest or two of witless hair in each cupped ear, and the blushing cheeks of a man who has stood too long in the cold and drunk too much in the pub so as to stand too long in the cold again. Dark glasses covered his eyes, and there was no telling what lay behind. I had begun to wonder, weeks back, if his sight prowled me along, damning my guilty speed, or if only his ears caught the passing of a harried conscience. There was that awful fear I might seize, in passing, the glasses from his nose. But I feared much more the abyss I might find, into which my senses, in one terrible roar, might tumble. Best not to know if civet’s orb or interstellar space gaped behind the smoked panes.

      But, even more, there was a special reason why I could not let the man be.

      In the rain and wind and snow, for two solid months, I had seen him standing here with no cap or hat on his head.

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