Imajica. Clive Barker

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      ‘Not to me it won’t. When I start to decay, I’m going to kill myself. I swear.’ He made fists of his painted hands, and raised them to his face, drawing the knuckles down over his cheeks. ‘I won’t let it happen,’ he said.

      ‘Good luck,’ she replied.

      They drove the rest of the way without any further exchange between them, his passive presence on the passenger seat beside her making her uneasy. She kept thinking of Taylor’s story and expecting him to start talking, unleashing a stream of lunacies. It wasn’t until she announced that they’d arrived at the studio that she realized he’d fallen asleep. She stared at him awhile: at the smooth dome of his forehead, and the delicate configuration of his lips. It was still in her to dote on him, no question of that. But what lay that way? Disappointment and frustrated rage. Despite Clem’s words of encouragement she was almost certain it was a lost cause.

      She shook him awake, and asked him if she could use his bathroom before going on her way. The punch was heavy in her bladder. He was hesitant, which surprised her. The suspicion dawned that he’d already moved a female companion into the studio, some seasonal bird to be stuffed for Christmas and dumped by New Year. Curiosity made her press to be allowed in. Reluctant as he was, he could scarcely say no, of course, and she traipsed up the stairs after him, wondering as she went what the conquest was going to look like, only to find that the studio was empty. His sole companion was the painting that had so filthied his hands. He seemed genuinely upset that she’d set eyes on it, and ushered her to the bathroom more discomfited than if her first suspicions had been correct, and one of his conquests had indeed been disporting herself on the threadbare couch. Poor Gentle. He was getting stranger by the day.

      She relieved herself, and emerged from the toilet to find the painting covered with a stained sheet, and him looking furtive and fidgety, clearly eager to have her out of the place. She saw no reason not to be plain with him, and said:

      ‘Working on something new?’

      ‘Nothing much,’ he said.

      ‘I’d like to see.’

      ‘It’s not finished.’

      ‘It doesn’t matter to me if it’s a fake,’ she said. ‘I know what you and Klein get up to.’

      ‘It’s not a fake,’ he said, a fierceness in his voice and face she’d not seen so far tonight. ‘It’s mine.’

      ‘An original Zacharias?’ she remarked. ‘This I have to see.’

      She reached for the sheet before he could stop her, and flipped it up over the top of the canvas. She’d only had a glimpse of the picture as she’d entered, and from some distance. Up close, it was clear he’d worked on the canvas with no little ferocity. There were places where it had been punctured, as though he’d stabbed it with his palette knife or brush; other places where the paint was laid on with glutinous abandon, then thumbed and fingered to drive it before his will. All this to achieve the likeness of what? Two people, it seemed, standing face to face against a brutal sky, their flesh white, but shot through with jabs of livid colour. ‘Who are they?’ she said.

      ‘They? he said, sounding almost surprised that she’d read the image thus, then covering his response with a shrug. ‘Nobody,’ he said, ‘just an experiment,’ and pulled the sheet back down over the painting.

      ‘Is it a commission?’

      ‘I’d prefer not to discuss it,’ he said.

      His discomfort was oddly charming. He was like a child who’d been caught about some secret ritual. ‘You’re full of surprises,’ she said, smiling.

      ‘Nah, not me.’

      Though the painting was out of sight he continued to look ill at ease, and she realized there was going to be no further discussion on the picture or its import.

      ‘I’ll be off then,’ she said.

      ‘Thanks for the lift,’ he replied, escorting her to the door.

      ‘Do you still want to have that drink?’ she said.

      ‘You’re not going back to New York?’

      ‘Not immediately. I’ll call you in a couple of days. Don’t forget Taylor.’

      ‘What are you, my conscience?’ he said, with too small a trace of humour to soften the weight of the reply. ‘I won’t forget.’

      ‘You leave marks on people, Gentle. That’s a responsibility you can’t just shrug off.’

      ‘I’ll try to be invisible from now on,’ he replied.

      He didn’t take her to the front door, but let her head down the stairs alone, closing the studio door before she’d taken more than half a dozen steps. As she went, she wondered what misbegotten instinct had made her suggest drinks. Well, it was easily slipped out of, even assuming he remembered the suggestion had been made, which she doubted.

      Once out in the street she looked up at the building to see if she could spot him through the window. She had to cross the road to do so, but from the opposite pavement she could see him standing in front of the painting, which he had once again unveiled. He was staring at it, with his head slightly cocked. She couldn’t be certain, but it looked as though his lips were moving; as though he were talking to the image on the canvas. What was he saying, she wondered. Was he coaxing some image forth from the chaos of paint? And if so, in which of his many tongues was he speaking?

CHAPTER THIRTEEN

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      She had seen two people where he’d painted one. Not a he, a she or an it, but they. She’d looked at the image and seen past his conscious intention to a buried purpose, one he’d hidden even from himself. Now he went back to the canvas and looked at it again, with borrowed eyes, and there they were, the two she’d seen. In his passion to capture some impression of Pie’oh’pah, he had painted the assassin stepping from shadow (or back into it), a stream of darkness running down the middle of his face and torso. It divided the figure from top to bottom, and its outer edges, ragged and lush, described the reciprocative forms of profiles, etched in white from the halves of what he’d intended to be a single face. They stared at each other like lovers, eyes looking forward in the Egyptian manner, the backs of their heads folded into shadow. The question was: who were these two? What had he been trying to express setting these faces thus, nose to nose?

      He interrogated the painting for several minutes after she’d gone, preparing as he did so to attack the canvas again. But when it came to doing so, he lacked the strength. His hands were trembling, his palms clammy; his eyes could only focus upon the image indifferently well. He retreated from the picture, afraid to touch it in this weakened state for fear he undo what little he’d already achieved. A painting could escape so quickly. A few inept strokes and a likeness (to a face, to another painter’s work) could flee the canvas and never be recaptured. Better to leave it alone tonight. To rest, and hope he was strong tomorrow.

      He dreamed of sickness. Of lying in his bed, naked beneath a thin white sheet, shivering so hard his teeth chattered. Snow fell СКАЧАТЬ