LAST RITES. Neil White

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      Maybe the mud had saved her. The early hours were torture, but she knew time was the only cure, that soon the air would become warmer, just. She waited for the sounds of movement.

      But as she got warmer, Luke came back into her thoughts. Had they really killed him, or was that all part of the game? Maybe he was still alive and in a room just a few feet away? If she could get to him, maybe they could work together.

      She paced faster, but the view never changed. Just a stone wall, and then another after that, broken only by her shadow cast by the spotlights, shifting as she walked faster, more heat, more sound, her feet moving in time with the pulsing coming from the speakers.

      She had taken to chanting. As she paced, and then as she jumped on the spot, Sarah would say, ‘Keep strong, keep strong’, like saying it would make it come true.

      But it was easier to be strong when she was on her own. There was no one to hurt her, just her own thoughts and dark despair.

      Just then, the speakers went silent. Sarah heard someone outside the room. She froze, felt her stomach lurch. What was coming now?

      Her strength disappeared when she heard the lock turn in the door.

      Laura looked down at the arrest handover package in front of her. It was an A3 piece of paper, folded over, holding a print-out of the incident log and custody record, the former telling her how the job had been called in, the latter telling her what had happened to the prisoner since his arrival.

      Pete buzzed around her desk, trying to see what she had.

      ‘A scrapper,’ she said, her voice struggling to hide her contempt.

      ‘Todd Whitcroft?’ he asked.

      She checked the name on the front sheet. ‘Yeah, that's him. Do you know him?’

      Pete raised his eyebrows. ‘Blackley's premier-league scrapper. Feeds his kids by stripping the town's roofs of their lead and cashing it in at the scrap yard. He's moved on to cables now, because he thinks they're less traceable.’

      ‘Maybe he's got scared of heights,’ Laura said as she skim-read the front-sheet. ‘It looks like they caught him with a van full of them.’

      Pete sighed. ‘Oh great.’

      ‘What's wrong?’ she asked.

      ‘Todd Whitcroft never admits anything. He will say he had permission, or else he will say nothing at all.’

      Laura sensed the day stretching ahead, and she was overtaken by a sense of gloom.

      ‘So we have to catalogue it all,’ she said, her voice weary, ‘just so that we can prove where it came from.’

      ‘That's about it,’ he said, as he hopped off the desk and headed for the door. ‘No time like the present.’

      Laura got to her feet wearily, and then followed Pete out of the room. As they walked along the corridor, Pete bouncing small talk off the walls, Laura heard conversation coming out of the Incident Room further along. Her cheeks turned red as she remembered the humiliation from the day before, but she couldn't help glancing in as she went past. It looked like most were working the phones, chasing down old leads just to check if they had missed something. Only one person looked up, the cop in the polo shirt with the crew cut from the day before. He was still casually dressed, much different to the suits around Carson, and he smiled a greeting to Laura as he noticed her, a nod of reassurance.

      Pete pressed the security button and they both went into the cobbled yard at the back of the station. Laura groaned as she saw the dirty cables spilling out of the back of a battered Transit van.

      Pete passed her the clipboard. ‘You make notes, and I'll get in the van and shout out what we have.’

      Laura was about to object that she wasn't his secretary, but then she looked at her hands, clean and scrubbed, and then at her suit. Maybe there was a time for chivalry.

      ‘Have you thought some more?’ the masked man asked Sarah as he walked into the room. He was still again, his arms by his sides.

      ‘About what?’ She covered herself as best she could, arms over her breasts, her thighs clamped together.

      ‘About killing me,’ he answered.

      Sarah shook her head in exasperation. ‘I don't know who you think I am, and I don't know what you want from me.’

      He nodded at her. Sarah thought she saw the shape of a ponytail sticking out of the cloth, bobbing up and down in time with his head. ‘I know what you are,’ he said. ‘But you have to work it out too.’

      Sarah turned away and faced the wall.

      ‘Do you think you are the only one here with compassion?’ he asked.

      Sarah took a few deep breaths before she answered. ‘It feels that way,’ she said quietly.

      ‘You'd be wrong at that,’ he replied. ‘Morals suit everyone differently. But what of the things you really want? Not the fantasies people tell you you should have, but your real fantasies, the ones you don't tell anyone about, the ones that come to you in the night? They're your real morals. You should embrace them.’

      ‘And what do you want them to be?’ Sarah asked, her voice rising. ‘Murder, like you, or worse? Torture? Rape? Is that what you want me to tell you I think about? Or maybe me being raped, how I like to be hurt?’

      He said nothing.

      ‘Or perhaps I just want normal things,’ Sarah continued. ‘Like hoping I meet someone I love and settle down, have a happy home. What's wrong with that?’

      ‘Cowardly,’ he said. ‘Everyone has a darker side. Feed it, grow it.’

      ‘And what are your morals?’ Sarah asked as she turned back around. ‘What sick things do you dream of?’

      He gestured around the room. ‘I dream of this. Of you, in here, my butterfly fastened by the wings. And of this,’ and then he turned and dragged something into the room. Sarah saw that it was a camp bed. ‘I feel like showing you a kindness. There is no trick. This is just how I feel today.’

      Sarah looked at the bed. She craved the bed. She saw a blanket on top. Maybe if she could get in, she could drown out the noise and get some warmth. She closed her eyes as they became filled with tears. She had wanted to be strong, but she had more basic needs.

      ‘You have seen what I can do,’ he continued. ‘I will follow my emotions. You have to make me want to be kind, if that is how you want me to be.’

      ‘And if I make you feel different? If you don't feel kind?’

      ‘I'll just follow my feelings,’ he said, his voice sinister, and when Sarah swallowed, he added, ‘and my imagination.’

      ‘I'll do as I'm told,’ Sarah whispered.

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