A Widow’s Story: A Memoir. Joyce Carol Oates
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Название: A Widow’s Story: A Memoir

Автор: Joyce Carol Oates

Издательство: HarperCollins

Жанр: Биографии и Мемуары

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isbn: 9780007388196

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СКАЧАТЬ when I’d been visiting Ray in the hospital, of ceaselessly rummaging through a handbag or a tote bag to see if somehow I’d lost something crucial like car keys, or my wallet, or a death certificate.

      In fact, I have not misplaced the death certificate. Of several copies hand-delivered to me by Elizabeth Davis of the Blackwell Memorial Home—a gesture of kindness which I will not forget—just one was defiled by Reynard, and has been disposed of.

      (Though later, I will retrieve this copy of the death certificate from the trash. For I am fearful of running out of copies—so many parties seem to want one, as if doubtful that Raymond Smith is deceased. That one of the copies exudes a sour cat-smell is unfortunate.)

      Many times in a curious breathless trance I have read this Certificate of Death issued by the State of New Jersey Department of Health and Senior Services. You would think from my concentrated interest that I might be expecting to learn something new, to be surprised. Like one digging at a wound to make it bleed I am drawn to reading the sparse information again and again, to no purpose since I have memorized it—

      Cause of Death

      Immediate Cause

      Cardiopulmonary Arrest

      Due to (or as a consequence of)

      Pneumonia

      A minimalist poem by William Carlos Williams!

      Now in the dour waiting room of the surrogate court as I reread the death certificate it occurs to me to wonder—is this true? Did Ray die simply of pneumonia, or were other factors involved?

      A secondary infection, I’d been told. There is no mention of a secondary infection in the document.

      I think that I remember having been asked at the medical center if I wanted Ray’s body autopsied. In whatever haze of confusion at the time quickly I’d said no.

      No! No.

      Could not bear it. The thought of Ray’s body being mutilated.

      I know!—the body is not the man. Not “Ray.”

      And yet—where else had “Ray” resided, except in that body?

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