Encounters. Barbara Erskine

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      ‘OK, Joe. Have a drink.’ I sighed and went for the bottle as he set down the two baskets and came forward.

      He took the glass from my hand. ‘You’re a real brick, Pen. Did I ever tell you that?’

      Of course, I could have stepped back in time to avoid that kiss; as it was I stepped back just a little too late. As an experiment it was a success.

      ‘I like your hair long. You look fabulous; really good.’ He took a deep drink from his glass. I waited smugly for his eyes to water as he swallowed, but they didn’t. I was impressed. It was neat and he had taken a big gulp. Perhaps he had been practising.

      ‘Happy Christmas, fella,’ I whispered. ‘Now, stop flannelling and show me this friend.’

      ‘His name is Paul.’ He set down the glass.

      ‘Paul?’

      I watched as he went to the shopping. One of the baskets was stuffed with blankets and – I felt my eyes growing enormous – a small baby.

      I stood there, for the first time in my life speechless, as Joe tenderly scooped it up and brought it to the fire. It had delicate, tiny features and warm pink cheeks. It was asleep.

      ‘Isn’t he beautiful?’ Joe’s voice was very gentle.

      ‘Whose is it?’ I don’t think my voice was as harsh as it should have been. It really was, now he came to mention it, rather beautiful.

      ‘This is my son.’ There was no mistaking this time the pride in his voice.

      And there was no mistaking the jealousy and disappointment that swept through me as he said it; silly fool that I was, still caring for a man like him.

      ‘Do you want to hold him?’ He spoke with the voice of one about to bestow a rare and lovely treat. I stepped back and firmly picked up my glass again.

      ‘I’m not used to babies,’ I said. ‘I’d drop him.’

      ‘I expect you want to know where he came from?’ The shifty look had gone and the old mischievous grin was back, teasing me.

      I raised an eyebrow. ‘I’ve no doubt you have as many gooseberry bushes in town as we do here.’

      ‘His mother doesn’t like children. We had a conference when we split up and she said I could take him. So I did.’ He was grinning all over his face.

      ‘So you did.’ I was stunned. ‘Do you know anything about babies, Joe?’

      He shook his head. ‘She gave me a manual. It’s quite straightforward, really. I’ve got all the gear. It’s in the car, actually.’

      ‘But, Joe, what’ll you do when term starts? Who will look after it then?’

      Joe, like me, teaches.

      He shrugged. ‘I’ll find someone to keep an eye on him.’

      Gently he laid the child down on the sofa and unwrapped a layer of shawl. I was torn between indignation and curiosity.

      ‘Hadn’t you better tell me who his mother was? Is?’

      ‘Was. It has all been made legal. A lovely lady, Pen. You would like her …’

      Like hell, I thought.

      ‘… She’s tall and dark and quiet, but absolutely set on being a top dancer. And she’ll do it. She’s good. And she’s definitely not the maternal type. She nearly killed me when she got pregnant. Lovely girl.’

      He positively licked his lips.

      ‘You are a swine, Joe.’ I thought it was time I said it out loud.

      He laughed. ‘You know, none of them have ever been like you, Pen. None of them.’

      It was my turn to look modest. ‘And how many of them have there been, if I might enquire?’

      He shrugged. ‘Trade secret, love. Who’s counting? It’s you I’ve come back to.’

      ‘You and who else,’ I said.

      When he went to unpack the car I had a look at the baby. It was very like him, I had to admit.

      I pulled back the shawl to have a better look and the infant Nureyev opened its eyes – and then its mouth. I leaped back as though it had bitten me. The squalling was deafening.

      Joe was beside me in an instant. ‘Did Penny frighten you, den?’

      I put my hands over my face. ‘Joe! I don’t believe it. Not you. Not baby talk. Surely your son is an intellectual?’

      ‘Of course he is.’ Joe drew himself up. ‘Who is an intellectual, den? Daddy’s boy.’ He laughed. ‘You should see your face, Pen.’ He put his arm around me and gave me a squeeze. ‘Come on. Are you going to feed him? It’s time he was asleep.’

      ‘Me?’ I hit an unseemly falsetto. ‘I couldn’t feed him.’

      ‘Why not? Women do these things by instinct.’

      ‘Evidently his mother doesn’t. And neither do I,’ I said firmly. ‘It’s all up to you, Joe.’

      I watched fascinated as he bent and, rummaging in a paper bag, produced a feeding bottle.

      ‘It’s only got to be warmed up.’

      ‘Can’t we give it brandy, or something, just this once?’ I quavered. Babies, it seemed, unnerved me completely.

      He remembered where the kitchen was; and the kettle; and the mixing bowl. Damn him, he was completely at home!

      I hovered ineffectually, listening with increasing unease to the baby’s screams from next door.

      ‘Pick him up, will you. Tell him it’s coming.’

      I had been afraid he would say that. Nervously I edged an arm under the convulsed little bundle and heaved it up. It was surprisingly heavy. To my amazement it stopped crying at once, and after a moment, beamed at me. I found myself beaming back. I felt ridiculously pleased.

      ‘See, he likes you.’ Joe appeared with a towel wrapped around his waist, the bottle in his hand.

      I watched goggle-eyed as he stuffed the teat into the baby’s mouth and tipped the stuff down and I almost asked if I could have a go myself.

      ‘I knew you’d turn up trumps, Pen.’ Joe took his refilled glass from me and raised it in salute. We had made the baby a bed in a drawer upstairs after he had changed its nappy – blessedly out of sight, to save my sensibilities – and it had gone off to sleep at once. Its mountain of belongings tidied away, my cottage began to look familiar again.

      ‘You can’t keep it, Joe. It’s got to go back to its mother.’ I looked at him earnestly.

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