Undoing of a Lady. Nicola Cornick

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      “Handsome of you,” Nat said. “You wreck my future and then you let me go to face the ruins.”

      “Oh, do not be so melodramatic!” Lizzie snapped. “You should not have become a fortune hunter in the first place. It does not become you!”

      “There speaks a woman with fifty thousand pounds and a judgmental attitude,” Nat said. “You know nothing.”

      “I know everything about you!” Lizzie flashed. “I have known you for over nine years and I care about you—”

      “You aren’t doing this out of disinterested friendship, Lizzie,” Nat interrupted her scathingly. “You are doing this because you are selfish and spoiled and immature, and you do not wish another woman to have a greater claim on me. You want to keep me for yourself.”

      Lizzie gaped. “You are an arrogant pig!”

      “And you are a pampered brat. You need to grow up. I have thought so for a long time.”

      They stood glaring at one another whilst the tension in the room simmered and the candle flame flickered as though responding to something dangerous in the air.

      Somewhere inside, Lizzie was hurting, but she cut the pain off, cauterized it with the heat of her anger.

      “When have I been spoiled and immature?” she demanded. She had not wanted to ask, to twist the knife in her own wounds, but she found she was unable to keep the words inside.

      Nat laughed, a harsh sound that ripped at her soul. “Where shall I start? You have no interest in anyone or anything beyond your own concerns and opinions. You flaunted yourself brazenly at the assembly on the very day that my engagement to Flora was announced, and that could only have been to take attention away from her. You flirt with anything in trousers. You have kept both Lowell Lister and John Jerrold dancing on a string for months when you have no interest in them other than in the way they feed your vanity. And if we are talking about serious lack of consideration for others, you bought some of Miles Vickery’s most valued possessions at the sale of Drum Castle and never had the generosity to give them back to him—”

      Lizzie covered her ears. Nat caught her wrists and dragged her hands away.

      “You wanted to know,” he said. His voice was hard. “I knew you would not be able to take the truth.”

      He dropped her wrist as though he could not bear to touch her, and they fell apart. Both of them were panting. Lizzie felt as though her skin had been flayed bare by his words. Her eyes prickled with hot tears. She forced them back.

      After a moment Nat raked his hand through his hair again and made a visible attempt to keep calm.

      “Give me the key and we’ll forget this ever happened,” he said.

      It was too late for that and they both knew it.

      “No,” Lizzie said. She crossed her arms. “I don’t have it.”

       “You are a pampered brat. You need to grow up. You are spoiled and selfish…”

      She told herself that she did not care what he thought. She knew she was lying. It hurt horribly. Something precious, something she had cherished, had been broken beyond saving. Nat’s opinion had always mattered to her. She had respected him. Now she felt as though she hated him.

      Nat’s gaze stripped her, suddenly shockingly insolent. “I suppose you have hidden it about your person.”

      “No, I have not!” Lizzie was taken aback both by his tone and the look in his eyes. He had never looked at her like that before, as though she was some Covent Garden whore displaying her wares for the purchase. She felt humiliated; she told herself she was livid. Yet something in her, something shocking and primitive, liked it well enough. The blood warmed beneath her skin, the heat rolling through her body from her cheeks down to her toes and back up again, setting her afire.

      Nat grabbed her so quickly she did not even see him move. His hands passed over her body; intimate, knowing hands, seeking and searching. The goose bumps rose all over her skin, following the path of his touch. The heat intensified inside her, burning hotter than a furnace. She squirmed within his grip, protesting against the humiliation of his restraint and her body’s response to it.

      “Let me go! I don’t have it, I tell you!” There was more pleading than she liked in her tone.

      “But you know where it is.” He let her go, breathing hard. There was some expression in his eyes, something feral, something different. It made her tremble. She remembered for the first time that he was a man who habitually, ruthlessly and coldly hunted down criminals in the course of his duty. She did not think about that often for that was the side of Nat’s life that she seldom saw, but she thought about it now because she could sense the rage in him and the desperation. She remembered that he had said he needed Flora Minchin’s fifty thousand pounds very badly indeed. She knew that he had wanted to restore Water House and provide for his family—his parents were old and his sister Celeste an invalid—but recently it had seemed there was an added urgency to his actions as though something else had happened to make his pursuit of the money even more pressing. She did not know what it was. She had never asked. Perhaps Nat was right that she was always wrapped up in her own concerns. The thought disturbed her.

      She searched his face for the Nat Waterhouse she recognized and saw a stranger.

      It chilled her so much that she teetered on the brink of capitulation and Nat saw her hesitate on the very edge of defeat—and he laughed.

      “That’s right, Lizzie. Act like an adult for once. Go and fetch the key.”

      It was the contempt in his voice that decided her, that and his laughter ringing in her ears. She could imagine him telling his friends Dexter Anstruther and Miles Vickery all about her plan, how she had thought to put a stop to his marriage because she was so young and immature and spoiled, and because she was harboring a not-so-secret tendre for him. She burned with humiliation to think of him ascribing such feelings to her and laughing over them with his friends because, she told herself fiercely, it simply wasn’t true. She had tried to rescue him and he had scorned her efforts and for that she would make him pay. The need to make him suffer—to make him hurt the way she was hurting—ached in her chest and ran through her blood like poison.

      She drew herself up and stared him in the eye.

      “No. I am not going anywhere and neither are you.” She spun away from him across the tiny chamber.

      “You’re bloody mad.” Nat was furious and had given up any pretence of courtesy now.

      “And you are bloody rude.” She whirled around to look at him, heady with power now. “And arrogant and conceited to think that I care for you.”

      “Don’t you?” His eyes glittered.

      “Of course not. I detest you. Especially now, after all those wicked things you have said about me. What do you think this is, one of Monty’s ridiculous medieval laws?” She flicked him an impertinent smile even though her heart felt, oddly, as though it was breaking. “The droit de seigneur? Surely you don’t imagine that I kidnapped you in order to have my wicked way with you on the night before your wedding?” СКАЧАТЬ