Broken Soup. Jenny Valentine

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СКАЧАТЬ just out of curiosity, to see what it was. I wanted to say the right thing so I could spend more time around her. I knew it would still be in Jack’s bin because I was the only one who did the rubbish, Tuesday nights. And that was the only thing in his bin anyway, we never used it. Still, I was thinking I’d just get another negative if that one had somehow disappeared. It’s not like she would ever know.

      After a bit she said, “If you want to print it I can help you. I know how to do that stuff.”

      It was nice the way she said it, not pushy, and she said I could bring Stroma, so I said OK.

      We went to her house later in the week. Bee lived with her dad and her little brother in a top floor flat on the Ferdinand Estate, with a playground out the front and a view across London. The walkway outside her front door was lined with geraniums and daisies. You could see the Telecom Tower. Bee’s dad was called Carl and he had overgrown pale hair and sunken cheeks, and you just knew by looking at him that he played the guitar. Her brother was about two. He was wandering around with a snoopy T-shirt and no pants on, which cracked Stroma up straightaway. He had hair the same colour as Carl’s, but all matted and curly.

      “I didn’t know you had a brother,” I said.

      “You don’t know much about me at all,” she said, smiling. “We just met.”

      We watched the chubby little back of him padding down the hall, Stroma close behind, fussing over him like a sheepdog.

      “What’s his name?”

      “Sonny.”

      Carl took Stroma and Sonny off to the kitchen to make jam tarts. Stroma couldn’t stop giggling. I thought her knees might buckle with the joy of it.

      Bee was turning out cupboards in the bathroom. She said it would be much quicker to scan the negative into Photoshop and get an image straight up on screen, but she didn’t have a scanner and anyway she printed photos in the bath because it was how Carl had taught her and it was all his equipment. She said the old-fashioned way was better because she liked the not knowing, the time things took to happen. The taps were on and she had her head under the sink. She was talking to me about this thing called the Slow Movement, which seemed to mean baking your own bread instead of nipping out for it to the nearest shop, and making lunch take all day, and getting a boat and a train and another boat instead of flying, because the journey is everything, not just a way of getting from one place to another. She was telling me this stuff I’d never considered and I hadn’t even taken my coat off, but I think I got most of it. Bee’s brain is as precise and quick and extraordinary as the rest of her, the way she has you look at things.

      While I was waiting around, I picked up a book and started leafing through it. One of the photos inside was the first ever photo, Bee said. It was taken more than a hundred and fifty years ago by a Frenchman called Daguerre. She said in those days they had these huge plate cameras and everybody had to sit still for ages if they wanted their picture to come out. They had these special headrests that you clamped yourself in to have your portrait done or else you’d be nothing but a blur.

      The photo she showed me wasn’t a portrait, or not on purpose anyway. Daguerre had aimed his camera out of the window to take a picture of the street where he lived. It was a busy street in Paris, people everywhere, except in the photo nobody’s there, like ghosts in a mirror. The only two people in the picture, the only living things among all the ghosts, are a man having his shoes shined by a boy. Only they had stayed in one place for long enough to become real.

      I loved that picture. I looked at them, the two blurry figures in the near distance, and I told myself that sometimes people get noticed and remembered and appreciated without doing anything heroic or extraordinary, without knowing anyone’s watching them at all.

      The stuff that Bee hauled out of various cupboards was a big sort of microscope, a red light bulb, three trays like you’d plant seeds in, a torch, a pair of tongs and a couple of black bottles. She was setting things out the whole time she was talking to me, laying the trays in the bath, pouring out stuff, screwing the shower head off the bath taps so it ran like a hose, swapping the red bulb for the one that hung bare in the ceiling. She pulled down the blind and closed the wooden shutters, dropping the bar down to keep them closed. Then she bolted the bathroom door and turned on the red light, which took all the colour out of us and the room, apart from itself. Everything went soft around the edges and the whites of Bee’s eyes became the same colourless red as her hair and her lips and her skin.

      She said, “Where’s the negative?” and while I was getting it from my bag, she put her hair up with two pencils. I handed it over and she slid it into the top of the big microscope which she’d balanced on a piece of plywood over the sink. Then she flicked a switch and my negative, nobody’s negative, shone A4 size on to a white board below.

      I should have recognised it then, but I didn’t.

      Bee was sizing it up, blocking bits out and squaring them off. “It’s so damaged,” she said. “We won’t get all the scratches out of it.”

      It was the only source of white light in the room. She was adjusting things, bringing the image in and out of focus so it waved, one minute hazy, the next sharp; like an apparition, like the ghost of a photo, or a photo of a ghost. I couldn’t stop looking at the eyes, like those plasma globes that spark inside with lightning when you touch them. Bee was all business, making noises to herself about the quality of the shot, the aperture, stuff that went straight over my head. She said she was going to do a strip test to work out the best exposure time and she started counting, “One, two, three, four – one, two, three, four,” four times altogether before she poured some of the liquid into the trays and put the paper into the first tray with her special tongs. The room stank, a sharp sour toxic smell my lungs didn’t want to let in.

      “Watch this,” Bee said, and the paper began to darken and cloud. “It’s only a slice of it, maybe a bit of cheek or chin.”

      She picked it up and dipped it in tray two, trailing it through the liquid again. “That’s the fixer,” she said. “That stops the photo from disappearing on you later.”

      I nodded, but she wasn’t looking at me. She unlocked the door and slipped out into the bright hallway for a moment. “Ten seconds,” she said on her way back in. “Ten seconds should do it.”

      The ghost came back on and Bee counted to ten, and then the paper went into the developing tray again and I held my breath. I guess I counted to twenty before something started to appear. Bee was right about the waiting bit, the anticipation. My chest was tight and I was taking these quick shallow breaths because of the stench, and everything was focused on this white paper, about to change in the red light.

      When it happened, it happened way too fast.

      Suddenly, there he was, looking straight up at us with his hand on his throat and his eyes shining and his mouth wide open in a laugh.

      Jack.

      The fluid lapped and rippled over his face as it moved in the tray. He looked like he was drowning in it. I was on my knees with my cheek on the cold edge of the bath. I wasn’t sure how I got there. I was swallowing and swallowing and my mouth kept flooding with water.

      Bee picked my brother up with the tongs and slid him into the fixer. She didn’t say a word. Jack looked at me and laughed. He laughed until the fixer was done and while she held him under running water to wash the chemicals off. He laughed while she cleaned up around me and switched the light bulbs back and opened the window.

      He laughed the whole СКАЧАТЬ