The Big Five O. Jane Wenham-Jones
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Название: The Big Five O

Автор: Jane Wenham-Jones

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СКАЧАТЬ rang. Her palms were sweating so badly she was likely to drop the bloody stick before she could use it.

      For a moment she thought about hiding in the coat cupboard till he went away, or telling him it had all been a mistake. Or even denying all knowledge and pretending he’d been the victim of a terrible hoax.

      Then she thought of Amy’s face when she told her she could go on the trip to Paris after all.

      Roz took a deep breath and opened the door …

       Chapter 7

       I left it so long because I didn’t believe it. Nothing fitted with anything I’d ever read or heard. Breast lumps – I thought – were small and hard and you discovered them in the shower. Like a pea – that’s what everyone always says. This wasn’t even in my breast really – it was above it where there’s a muscle anyway. It wasn’t even a proper lump, just a sort of … thickening … It felt like something that could have happened because I’d pulled something. Or lifted too much.

       Or knocked it.

       I’ve been waiting for it to go away.

       But it hasn’t.

       It’s got bigger. And I can no longer pretend. I’ve Googled of course. And I thought at first it was probably a cyst. Easily drained and removed. Some go away all on their own. But not mine.

       But I’ve felt stressed and stress can lead to all sorts of things. It could be some sort of inflammation caused by too much cortisol.

       Or a fibroadenoma. ‘A very common benign breast condition’ the website says. Describing a lump that is rubbery and moves when you touch it. I think mine moves. I’m not sure. I’ve prodded it so much it’s sore. Unless it was going to hurt anyway – in which case it can’t be cancer, can it? Cancerous lumps are usually painless – it says that on several pages.

       Apart from the forum where the terminal women were talking. But everyone knows you don’t go to chat rooms with good news …

       If this happened to any of the others, they’d be decisive, and go straight to the doctor and God knows they’d expect me to as well.

       I don’t know what’s stopping me. It is a lump now for certain. So it’s not as if I’m making a fuss about nothing. I will phone tomorrow. I really will.

       I’m just so, so scared …

       Chapter 8

      Charlotte threw down the newspaper in disgust. ‘Have you read this stupid woman interviewed here? She’s saying she actually felt grateful to God when her husband went on blood pressure pills and they made him impotent!’

      Charlotte glared at Fay. ‘She says she’s spent thirty years in a constant state of anxiety waiting for him to stray and now she finally feels confident she has him all to herself.’

      ‘While presumably needing to stray herself,’ said Fay drily.

      ‘No, she says she’s not bothered about sex and if she is at any time, frustration is a small price to pay for peace of mind.’

      Fay pulled a disparaging face. ‘Hasn’t she heard of vibrators? Silly cow.’

      ‘But how horrible to be always uneasy about what your husband is up to.’ Charlotte gave a sudden wail ‘I do not want to be like that!’

      Fay sipped at the coffee Charlotte had made her and looked at her watch. ‘I need to be at the office as soon as I’ve had this, Hun. Tell me what’s happened.’

      ‘That first Wednesday – Roger came home at the usual time and said he’d had meetings all afternoon. ‘All very dull,’ he said. But there was just something. He sort of didn’t meet my eye …’

      Fay waited.

      ‘But what could I do? He was here so if he’d seen that Marion then presumably it was in working hours and he couldn’t have been with her long because he phoned me at two and he was in the car driving and then I phoned him at half four and he was driving again – said he was popping back to Ashford to go into the office for an hour and then he’d be right back. And he was here by seven so he must have come straight home. In fact, sometimes he’s later than that if he leaves at half five and the traffic’s heavy–’

      Fay sighed inwardly. This wasn’t going to be quick.

      ‘So basically, he’d been at work.’

      ‘I think so, yes, but yesterday–’ Charlotte paused and Fay waited again.

      ‘Yes?’ Fay knew she sounded sharp, but she’d told Len she’d be there by ten latest and surely Charlotte had stuff to get on with as well.

      ‘I phoned him around 3 p.m. and his phone was switched off. Went straight to answer phone. So I called him at work, and Libby said he was out of the office.’

      ‘Right.’ Fay drank a bit more coffee and resisted the urge to tell Charlotte to get to the crux.

      ‘And she wasn’t sure where.’ Charlotte’s tone suggested this was loaded with significance.

      Fay sighed audibly now. ‘Well, perhaps he hadn’t told her. Doesn’t mean he was up to no good.’

      ‘Lib organises his diary. She’s the most efficient woman on the planet. There is no way Roger would be in a meeting she didn’t know about. She was covering for him!’

      Fay shook her head. ‘If she was, why not just lie and say he had a meeting with the ABC company and have done with it?’

      ‘In case I checked I suppose.’ Charlotte looked irritated. ‘When I persisted, she was all vague about how he could be here and he’d mentioned he might pop in there. I didn’t believe a bloody word of it.’

      ‘Anyway,’ said Charlotte impatiently as Fay looked sceptical. ‘I was talking to a client the other day who said she’s got some sort of tracking on her two kids’ phones – so she can see where they are if they’re late home from school or the daughter goes out in the evening. Says it stops her worrying so much. And I was thinking – that maybe you’d know about it. So I can do it to Roger.’

      ‘What?’ Fay heard herself almost squawk. ‘You want to put a tracker on your husband’s phone?’

      ‘Yes.’ Charlotte looked defiant. ‘I do.’ She got up and reached for the coffee pot. ‘She said it’s a feature on an iPhone – you do family sharing or something. I pretended I wanted to keep an eye on Joe. But I’ve Googled it and I don’t know how to do it without getting into Roger’s phone – and as I told you, he’s changed the pass code. I wondered if you’d have any ideas.’

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