Always a Mother. Linda Warren

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      A bubble of laughter left her throat. “We’ve both had Bunny’s watermelon wine, but how do you know what a hooker’s kiss tastes like?”

      He grinned. “Purely a guess.”

      “Now I know why you made such awful grades in English.”

      He gently laid her down. “There’s only one woman I want to kiss.” His lips trailed a line of fire from her neck to her jaw. When his mouth covered hers, any remaining doubts vanished. All she felt was happiness.

      Looking into her eyes, he said, “I love you. Only you.”

      She ran her fingers through his hair. “You better. We have a baby to raise.”

      He glanced at the crib. “I see she’s sleeping.”

      “Yes, finally.”

      “Tomorrow I’ll watch her and you can rest.” He rolled onto Claire. “But now we need some fun time.”

      As he turned out the light she giggled like a schoolgirl. He wanted her. That’s what she needed to hear—to know. It was important to her as a woman.

      But her faith in their love was tested once more.

      When Sarah was six months old, Claire discovered she was pregnant again. She was on the pill, but something had gone wrong. Being up with Sarah so much, she was exhausted most of the time, and obviously had forgotten to take it. She cursed herself. She cursed Dean.

      “God, this can’t be happening again,” he said when she told him.

      “Well, it is. I can’t do this. I can’t handle two babies by myself. You’re gone all the time and I’m stuck here.”

      She couldn’t believe the words coming out of her mouth. She’d never dreamed she felt that way. But she did.

      “I help, too.”

      “Your mother helps. Most nights you’re out having fun.” Emotions too long bottled up came spilling out.

      “Claire, that’s not fair.”

      “No, it isn’t,” she screamed. “I’m the one making all the sacrifices. I’m the one…” Anger consumed her and she tore out of the apartment.

      “Claire,” Dean called, but she kept running.

      She stopped in a small park on campus to catch her breath. Her head pounded with doubts, insecurities and with the reality of growing up. As an adult, wasn’t she supposed to be wiser? And wasn’t she supposed to have learned from her mistakes?

      Sinking onto the grass, she wrapped her arms around her legs and watched as couples strolled hand in hand, oblivious to everything but each other. She and Dean had been like that, so much in love. Life and responsibilities were suddenly too much.

      As Dean walked toward her, she scrambled to her feet. “Where’s Sarah?” she asked.

      “Mom’s with her.”

      “You always do that—call Bunny. Sarah is your responsibility, not your mother’s.”

      He frowned. “I had to find you.”

      Claire whirled away. “I can’t do this. I can’t have another baby. As soon as Sarah was better, I was planning to enroll for classes. Now…”

      “What are you saying?”

      She faced him. “I’m exhausted physically and emotionally. I…”

      “I’m sorry you’re pregnant.” For the first time he seemed angry. “But you’re the one who forgot to take the pill.”

      “Why is that my responsibility?”

      He jammed both hands through his hair. “I don’t know. It just is.”

      “Well, it shouldn’t be, because I’m lousy at it.”

      His mouth twitched. “Honey…” He reached for her.

      She backed away. “Don’t touch me. I can’t think when you do that.”

      “What do you want me to do?”

      “I don’t know.” She paused, her voice dropping to barely a whisper. “I just want to feel happy again.”

      “Claire, honey.” He wrapped his arms around her and she sagged against him. “I’m sorry life has been so hard.”

      “I know.” She looked into his blue eyes. “Undo my bow.”

      “What?”

      “Undo my bow.”

      Frowning, he yanked the ribbon that held back her blond hair, and it tumbled to her shoulders. She spun and took off running across the grass, her hair flying behind her. He caught her in less than ten seconds. Laughing, they whirled around as a light rain began to fall. They hardly noticed as they slowly began to dance, locked in each other’s arms. Raindrops pelted their heads, but they didn’t mind. They were young and in love and remembering how wonderful that felt.

      “I love it when we dance—even without music,” he said, kissing her face.

      The scent of rain mingled with the smell of him, and her heart brimmed with happiness. She’d lost it for a moment. “Me, too. I love you.”

      He stopped moving and cupped her face, his thumbs making wet circles on her cheeks. “I love you with all my heart.”

      She smiled, blinking in the rain. “We’re having another baby,” she whispered, feeling his love—the love that made her happy and complete.

      “Yes.” He kissed her softly. “You okay?”

      “I am now.” She took his hand. “Let’s go home.”