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      “Like me?” she said, startled at being compared to the young hero.

      “For so many of your generation it seems to be all about things. Bank accounts, and stuff, telephones stuck in your ears. But for Riley, it was about being of service. About helping other people. And that’s what it’s about for you, too.”

      Molly remembered sending that message to Miss Viv this morning, pleading for direction.

      And here was her answer, as if you could not send out a plea for direction like the one she had sent without an answer coming from somewhere.

      Ever since the crushing end of her relationship with Chuck, Molly had questioned everything about herself, had a terrible sense that she approached life all wrong.

      And now she saw that wasn’t true at all. She was not going to lose what was best about herself because she’d been hurt.

      And then she became aware of her new boss watching her, a cynical look on his face.

      For a moment she criticized herself, was tempted to see herself through his eyes. I am too soft, she thought. He sees it. For a moment she reminded herself of her vow, since Chuck, to be something else.

      But then she realized that since Chuck she had become something else: unsure, resentful, self-pitying, bitter, frightened.

      When life took a run at you, she wondered, did it chip away at who you were, or did it solidify who you really were? Maybe that was what she had missed: it was her choice.

      “The days of all our lives are short,” Mary said, and patted her on the arm. “Don’t waste any of it.”

      Don’t waste any of it, Molly thought, being frightened instead of brave, playing it safe instead of giving it the gift of who you really were.

      The sun was so warm on her uplifted face, and she could feel the softness of Mrs. Bedford’s tiny, frail hand in hers. And she could also feel the hope and strength in it.

      Molly could feel love.

      And if she allowed what Chuck—what life—had done to her to take that from her, to make her as cynical as the man watching her, then hadn’t she lost the most important thing of all?

      Herself.

      She was what she was. If that meant she was going to get hurt from time to time, wasn’t that so much better than the alternative?

      She glanced again at Houston. That was the alternative. To be so closed to these small miracles. To know the price of everything and the value of nothing.

      She suddenly felt sorry for him, standing there, aloof. His clothing and his car, even the way he stood, said he was so successful.

      But he was alone, in amongst all the wonder of the morning, and these people reaching out to each other in love, he was alone.

      And maybe that was none of her business, and maybe she could get badly hurt trying to show him there was something else, but Molly suddenly knew she could not show him the soul of Second Chances unless she was willing to show him her own.

      And it wasn’t closed and guarded.

      When she had put on that wedding dress yesterday for some reason she had felt more herself than she had felt in a long time.

      Hope filled. A believer in goodness and dreams. Someone who trusted the future. Someone with something to give.

      Love.

      The word came to her again, filled her. She was not sure she wanted to be thinking of a word like that in such close proximity to a man like him, and if she had not just decided to be brave she might not have. She might have turned her back on him, and gone back to the caring that waited to encircle her.

      But he needed it more than she did.

      “Houston,” she said, and waved him over. “Come meet Mary.”

      He came into the circle, reluctantly. And then Mary had her arms around his neck and was hugging him hard, and even as he tried to disentangle himself, Molly saw something flicker in his face, and smiled to herself.

      She was pretty sure she had just seen his soul, too. And it wasn’t nearly as hard-nosed as he wanted everyone to believe.

      The sun was warm on the lot and she was given a tray of bedding plants and a small hand spade. Soon she was on her knees between Mrs. Zarkonsky and Mr. Philly. Mrs. Zarkonsky eyed Houston appreciatively and handed him a shovel. “You,” she said. “Young. Strong. Work.”

      “Oh, no,” Molly said, starting to brush off her knees and get up. “He’s…” She was going to say not dressed for it, but then neither was she, and it hadn’t stopped her.

      He held up a hand before she could get to her feet, let her know that would be the day that she would have to defend him, and followed the old woman who soon had him shoveling dirt as if he was a farm laborer.

      Molly glanced over from time to time. The jacket came off. The sleeves were rolled up. Sweat beaded on his forehead. Was it that moment of recognizing who she really was that made her feel so vulnerable watching him? That made her recognize she was weak and he was strong, she was soft and he was hard? The world yearned for balance, maybe that was why men and women yearned for each other even in the face of that yearning being a hazardous endeavor.

      Houston put his back into it, all mouthwatering masculine grace and strength. Molly remembered the camera, had an excuse to focus on him.

      Probably a mistake. He was gloriously and completely male as he tackled that pile of dirt.

      “He looks like a nice boy,” Mary said, following her gaze, but then whispered, “but a little snobby, I think.”

      Molly laughed. Yes, he was. Or at least that was what he wanted people to believe. That he was untouchable. That he was not a part of what they were a part of. Somewhere in there, she could see it on his face he was just a nice boy, who wanted to belong, but who was holding something back in himself.

      Was she reading too much into him?

      Probably, but that’s who she was, and that’s what she did. She rescued strays. Funny she would see that in him, the man who held himself with such confidence, but she did.

      Because that’s what she did. She saw the best in people. And she wasn’t going to change because it had hurt her.

      She was going to be stronger than that.

      Molly was no more dressed for this kind of work than Houston. But she went and got a spade and began to shift the same pile of topsoil he was working on. What better way to show him soul than people willing to work so hard for what they wanted? The spirit of community was sprouting in the garden with as much vitality as the plants.

      The spring sun shone brightly, somewhere a bird sang. What could be better than this, working side by side, to create an oasis of green in the middle of the busy city? There was magic here. It was in the sights and the sounds, in the smell of the fresh earth.

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