Название: The Scratch
Автор: Andrew Taylor
Издательство: HarperCollins
Жанр: Ужасы и Мистика
isbn: 9780008179779
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‘You can go anywhere you like, more or less. It’s publicly owned. Sometimes you can walk for miles without meeting a soul.’
‘I’d like that,’ Jack said.
He went to bed early that night. To be honest, it was a relief. He hadn’t spoken much during supper and Gerald and I had struggled to keep a conversation going.
We cleared up in the kitchen. The floorboards overhead creaked as Jack moved to and fro in his room. Afterwards we went into the sitting room and turned on the television.
‘It’s going to be hard work if he’s like this all the time,’ I said.
‘It’s not his fault.’
‘I know. But what’s he going to do all day?’
Gerald shrugged. ‘I’m sure you’ll find something to occupy him.’
‘It’s easy for you to say,’ I said. ‘But you’ll be at the office five days a week.’
‘Look, Clare, we can’t just ignore him. He hasn’t got anyone else.’
‘I know. I’m not saying we should turn him out.’
‘I’d have thought you’d quite like the company. You said the other day how empty the house felt now the kids are hardly ever here.’
Gerald had an annoying habit of turning something I had said against me in argument. I said, ‘Yes, but it also means I now have more time to concentrate on work.’
We watched the talking heads on the television for a moment or two.
‘Nothing wrong with his appetite, anyway,’ Gerald said. He stretched out his hand and wrapped it round my forearm. ‘He just needs peace and quiet. Regular meals. Not too many people. We can give him all that.’
I patted his hand, accepting the olive branch.
‘Did he say anything about what happened? On the way from the station.’
‘He didn’t say much at all. I did most of the talking.’
‘He looks all right.’
‘Yes, but he wasn’t actually wounded. Not physically. It’s post-traumatic stress disorder. Or is it syndrome?’
‘What’s he going to do with his life now he’s out of the army? Does he know?’
‘He’s considering his options. That’s what he said in the car.’
‘I know it’s selfish, but I just wish …’ I broke off.
‘Wish what?’
I looked at the brightly coloured figures on the screen in front of us. ‘I wish he could consider them somewhere else. With someone else.’
That was the problem. Jack had no one except us.
Gerald had been his mother’s brother. She had married an engineer whose work took him to the Middle East and Central Asia. Jack had either lived with them or boarded at an international school in Geneva. Sue and Gerald were perfectly friendly as siblings go but she was about six years older than he was and they had never been close. She hadn’t even come to our wedding.
We exchanged cards and presents on Christmases and birthdays. There were occasional phone calls, though these had dwindled in frequency over the years. Gerald had stayed with them once, quite early on in our marriage, when he had been in Dubai for work. That’s when he had met Jack for the first and only time and seen him playing with Lego.
Sue was long dead, killed in a car crash at a busy intersection in Ankara when Jack was away at school. His father had died of cancer last year.
Jack had phoned us out of the blue last week. He had been invalided out of the army, he said, though he was perfectly OK now, really, just a bit jittery sometimes. All he needed was a bit of peace and quiet and time to sort himself out.
So naturally Gerald asked him to stay. Gerald was a decent man. The Forest was full of peace and quiet, or so people think.
On his first morning, Jack slept late. Gerald left for work at about seven thirty, as usual. He was a designer for a company that had a laboratory and offices just outside Monmouth. They made components for electronic instruments. He explained to me precisely what he did on several occasions but I never really understood it.
His departure left me in limbo. Usually at this time of the day I would leave the washing-up and, still in my dressing gown, shuffle into the studio with a cup of coffee and Radio Four. Cannop would often come with me and doze on the sagging, paint-stained sofa.
But I couldn’t just abandon Jack to his own devices, not on his first morning. So I got dressed, too, and made myself look respectable. I pottered about downstairs. I had fed Cannop and put him outside before Gerald left. The cat was now sitting on the kitchen windowsill, looking in. I felt irritated on his behalf as well as my own.
The irritation evaporated when Jack came downstairs just before nine. His hair was unbrushed and he hadn’t shaved. He looked so young and defenceless that it was hard to be angry with him. I poured him coffee and we sat at the kitchen table.
‘How did you sleep?’ I asked.
‘Off and on. You know how it is.’
‘Strange bed? New place?’
‘Yeah. That’s it.’ He glanced over to the window, at Cannop, and looked away. ‘I’ll go for a run after this,’ he said, cradling the coffee mug with his hands. ‘Clear my head. What’s the best way into the Forest?’
‘We’ve got our own gate. It’s just beside the Hovel. Do you want a map?’
‘No thanks – I’d rather find my own way. But I can go anywhere, right? I’m not going to be trespassing?’
‘No. It’s our Forest as much as anyone else’s.’
‘What about you? I don’t want to stop you doing anything.’ He looked awkward, as people often do when they mention my occupation. ‘Your … your art.’
‘I’ll just carry on,’ I said. ‘I’ll be in the studio – it’s at the far end of the house – beyond the sitting room. Come and find me when you get back. Or help yourself if you need anything.’
I went into the studio and became immersed in what I was doing. Every now and then I would surface – once because I glimpsed Jack jogging up the garden path on his way back; and again because Cannop yowled so piteously at the studio window that I had to let him in.
It was nearly lunchtime when I emerged, driven not only by a desire for food but by the niggling sense that I really ought to be a proper hostess for half an hour. Jack was already in the kitchen. He’d СКАЧАТЬ