A Lady of Notoriety. Diane Gaston

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СКАЧАТЬ of the shirt to his nose. Clean clothes. Not a hint of smoke. Someone had bathed and clothed him.

      Had she undressed him and clad him in a clean shirt? In drawers?

      He strained to remember. He recalled leading people out of the fire. Of fire blasting his face. He vaguely remembered being jostled in a carriage, but those memories were mere flashes, with no coherence at all.

      His head throbbed and he pressed his temples. How injured was he? He stretched his arms, flexed his legs. The rest of him seemed in one piece. He felt the sting of burns here and there on his skin, but nothing of significance.

      He could still walk, could he not? If so, he’d be damned if he remained bedridden.

      He slipped off the bed. His legs held him, so he felt his way around the bed’s edge before stepping away. He hated not knowing what lay in his path. Waving his hands in front of him, he took tentative steps. Was this life without sight? Caught in emptiness? Unsure of every step?

      A door opened.

      ‘Mr Westleigh!’ It was Mrs Asher’s voice. ‘You should not be out of bed!’

      He heard the clatter of dishes—and smelled porridge. He felt her come near. Caught the scent of roses.

      She took his arm. ‘Let me help you back to bed.’

      He pulled away. ‘I will not be an invalid.’

      She tugged at him. ‘No, but you must rest or you risk being that very thing.’

      He still did not wish to comply. ‘Did you bring food?’

      ‘Yes,’ she replied. ‘And a tray. See? You will be able to eat nicely in bed.’

      He jerked away. ‘I cannot see.’

      She stepped back and left him in the emptiness again.

      Let her abandon him! He’d find his own way back, if necessary.

      He turned to where he thought she stood. ‘Is there a table and chair in this room?’

      She did not answer right away. ‘Yes.’

      ‘Then I will sit and eat like a man.’

      ‘Very well.’ She sighed. ‘Stay where you are.’ He heard furniture being moved. She took his arm again. ‘Come here.’

      She led him to a chair. He sat and heard the table being moved towards him. A moment later he smelled the food and heard the sound of a tray being placed in front of him.

      She took his hand and placed a spoon in it, and showed him the bowl. ‘It is porridge. And tea.’

      He was suddenly famished, but he paused, trying again to face her, wherever she might be. ‘Mrs Asher?’

      ‘Yes?’ Her voice was petulant, as it should be after his abominable behaviour.

      ‘Do forgive me.’ He’d behaved badly towards her again. ‘I should be thanking you, nothing else.’

      It took several seconds for her to speak. ‘Your apology is accepted, Mr Westleigh.’ Her voice softened. ‘But do eat. You need to eat to gain strength.’

      ‘I am grateful for the food. I am quite hungry.’ He dipped the spoon, but missed the bowl. ‘Blast.’ He’d forgotten where the bowl was located.

      She directed him on his next try. This time he scooped up a spoonful of porridge and lifted it. He missed and hit the corner of his mouth.

      She wiped it with a napkin. ‘Let me help you.’ Putting her hand on his, she guided the spoon to his mouth.

      The first taste made him ravenous, but he could not bear being fed like a helpless infant. ‘I think I can manage it.’ He groped for the bowl and picked it up in one hand and held it close to his mouth. With his other hand he scooped the porridge with the spoon and shovelled it into his mouth.

      No doubt his manners were appalling.

      He scraped the bowl clean and felt for a space on the table to put it down. With his fingers, he carefully explored what else was there.

      A tea cup, warm to the touch. How was he to manage lifting a tea cup without spilling it?

      ‘How do you take your tea?’ she asked. ‘I will fix it for you.’

      ‘Milk and one lump of sugar.’ He listened to the clink of the spoon as she stirred.

      When the clinking stopped, she again guided his hand to the cup. He grasped it in both hands and carefully brought it to his mouth, aware of the aroma before attempting to take a sip. He sipped slowly, not because he savoured the taste, but because he did not wish to spill it.

      When he finished, he managed to place the cup into its saucer. ‘Thank you, Mrs Asher. You have been very kind.’

      ‘You should rest now,’ she responded. ‘The surgeon said—’

      ‘I will give you no further argument.’ He felt for the napkin and wiped his mouth.

      She came close again and touched his arm.

      ‘I want to try to manage by myself.’ He pushed the chair back and stood, getting reoriented to where the bed was. He groped his way back to it and climbed under the covers, aware that she must be watching his every awkward move. In his underclothes.

      ‘Shall I write to your family and tell them where you are and what has happened to you?’ she asked.

      His family? Good God, no.

      After this trip he intended to throw off the shackles of family responsibility for a time. He’d been at the family’s beck and call ever since leaving the army.

      ‘Do not write to my family.’ He raised his voice. ‘They must know nothing about this.’

      She did not speak.

      He shook his head, realising how he must have sounded. ‘I apologise again.’ He spoke in a milder tone. ‘My family would be the very worst of caretakers.’ They were not expecting him, so they would not worry. He’d not written that he’d left Brussels. Better to not give them any time to find a new task he might perform for them. ‘I beg you would find another solution. I realise I am imposing, but I can well pay for my care. I must not be put in the hands of my family. On that I must insist.’

      ‘Very well. I will not contact your family.’ He heard the sounds of her picking up the tray from the table. ‘But you must rest now. Someone will check on you later.’ He heard her footsteps walking towards the door. It opened and she spoke once more. ‘Mr Westleigh?’

      ‘Yes?’ He stiffened, expecting a rebuke.

      ‘You are not imposing.’

      The door closed.

      He was alone again. In the dark.

      Mrs Asher’s presence was a comfort, an anchor. Alone СКАЧАТЬ