Without Absolution. Amy Sterling Casil

Чтение книги онлайн.

СКАЧАТЬ her soft fur, and the nape of her neck. She is almost purring. What a lovely child, my little girl. I feel her heart beating against my chest.

      “I’ll be a beautiful ballerina, and everyone will love me,” she whispers.

      “Oh yes, my dear,” I say. “Everyone will love you.”

      Gyla kisses me on my rough cheek, but she seems not to notice the stubble. How easily the lies come. How much like the truth they seem.

      Gyla kisses me again, harder. It feels like I’ve cut myself with a razor. She moves away, and I see something dark on her rosebud mouth. I raise my hand to my cheek, then look at my fingers. I see blood, as dark as Jonny’s blood. I put my fingers to my lips. The blood tastes salty and sweet.

      “Mustn’t do, my love,” I say. “Ballerinas don’t bite.”

      Her little brow wrinkles, beneath the fur. She looks at me, wide-eyed. “No?” It is the Spanish no, more question than statement.

      I shake my head and hug her once more. “You will have slippers and dresses and tights and everything a little ballerina should have,” I say. “Everyone will love you.”

      She feels like a quivering bird in my arms, as she nestles against me, and I rock her in my lap, crooning a little ballerina song, a song she will like, my little girl, my angel, my dear one.

      A FIT SUBJECT FOR MODERN ART

      They say that jealousy is green

      but so is love

      green as a new blade of grass

      as sharp as turpentine

      and so you cleaned your brush

      after he died

      and drew the chartreuse line

      of his dead cheek

      against the porcelain bowl

      with trembling hand

      because the mix was green

      yellow and blue

      when they told you he was gone

      his head in the toilet

      and it was green there, too

      so you remembered

      so you drew

      with brush and paint

      thick and thin

      and perhaps there were tears

      or perhaps only rage

      rage is green, too

      so you hated

      so you loved

      the line rounded here

      brush caressing where once

      you caressed

      in a gray green stroke

      twisted

      tortured

      as were you

      the man you loved

      in undignified death

      is made beautiful as

      Laocoon

      and his sons

      making love to the snakes

      and such is fit for modern art

      to greenly love

      the one you hate

      for taking himself from you

      Конец ознакомительного фрагмента.

      Текст предоставлен ООО «ЛитРес».

      Прочитайте эту книгу целиком, купив полную легальную версию на ЛитРес.

      Безопасно оплатить книгу можно банковской картой Visa, MasterCard, Maestro, со счета мобильного телефона, с платежного терминала, в салоне МТС или Связной, через PayPal, WebMoney, Яндекс.Деньги, QIWI Кошелек, бонусными картами или другим удобным Вам способом.

/9j/4SI4RXhpZgAASUkqAAgAAAAOAAABAwABAAAAUwcAAAEBAwABAAAA1woAAAIBAwADAAAAtgAA AAMBAwABAAAAAQAAAAYBAwABAAAAAgAAABIBAwABAAAAAQAAABUBAwABAAAAAwAAABoBBQABAAAA vAAAABsBBQABAAAAxAAAABwBAwABAAAAAQAAACgBAwABAAAAAgAAADEBAgAeAAAAzAAAADIBAgAU AAAA6gAAAGmHBAABAAAAAAEAACwBAAAIAAgACACA/AoAECcAAID8CgAQJwAAQWRvYmUgUGhvdG9z aG9wIENTNiAoV2luZG93cykAMjAxMzowNzoxMCAxNjoxNDowOQAAAAMAAaADAAEAAAABAAAAAqAE AAEAAABYAgAAA6AEAAEAAAAgAwAAAAAAAAAABgADAQMAAQAAAAYAAAAaAQUAAQAAAHoBAAAbAQUA AQAAAIIBAAAoAQMAAQAAAAIAAAABAgQAAQAAAIoBAAACAgQAAQAAAKYgAAAAAAAASAAAAAEAAABI AAAAAQAAAP/Y/+0ADEFkb2JlX0NNAAH/7gAOQWRvYmUAZIAAAAAB/9sAhAAMCAgICQgMCQkMEQsK CxEVDwwMDxUYExMVExMYEQwMDAwMDBEMDAwMDAwMDAwMDAwMDAwMDAwMDAwMDAwMDAwMAQ0LCw0O DRAODhAUDg4OFBQODg4OFBEMDAwMDBERDAwMDAwMEQwMDAwMDAwMDAwMDAwMDAwMDAwMDAwMDAwM DAz/wAARCACgAHgDASIAAhEBAxEB/90ABAAI/8QBPwAAAQUBAQEBAQEAAAAAAAAAAwABAgQFBgcI CQoLAQABBQEBAQEBAQAAAAAAAAABAAIDBAUGBwgJCgsQAAEEAQMCBAIFBwYIBQMMMwEAAhEDBCES MQVBUWETInGBMgYUkaGxQiMkFVLBYjM0coLRQwclklPw4fFjczUWorKDJkSTVGRFwqN0NhfSVeJl 8rOEw9N14/NGJ5SkhbSVxNTk9KW1xdXl9VZmdoaWprbG1ub2N0dXZ3eHl6e3x9fn9xEAAgIBAgQE AwQFBgcHBgU1AQACEQMhMRIEQVFhcSITBTKBkRShsUIjwVLR8DMkYuFygpJDUxVjczTxJQYWorKD ByY1wtJEk1SjF2RFVTZ0ZeLys4TD03Xj80aUpIW0lcTU5PSltcXV5fVWZnaGlqa2xtbm9ic3R1dn d4eXp7fH/9oADAMBAAIRAxEAPwDk0kklmPVqSSSSUuwNdYxrnbGuc1rnRMAkNLo0+iup/wCYdn2z 7L9u/wC132Df6P8A3V/af2nb63/WPT/656n5i5Oz6DvgV7C/NxhmG0R/RT1if5Qr+x/+eVJiiDdi 2jz2fLi4DjNcQlekTqOHh+Z4fE+pmNkW1Vv6oavW6ezqbD9mL/0Ti71W+y7/AAP6L/jvV/4NAP1U Z+zndQZml1YwLOosYadpcys7a6j+m9nq/T/4JdF00Rk4A8Pqo38taiy7/sOFHp16/V+x/rbf0ukN 9P1J/mfztn76k9uPbp/BqnnOYH6fUfow/r/1f6jl5P1CZRkUY7ep+pZZltwbv1cgV2PodnNc3dd+ mb6fp/8Abn/B7EPE+pNWRk4mM7qRqszq77Kf1cuH6u/0rGHbf7fb+k9/9Rdbn/8AL

СКАЧАТЬ