The Midnight Library. Matt Haig

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СКАЧАТЬ He’d had so many other aspects – he had been so lovely to her mum when she was ill, and he could talk at ease about anything, he was so full of dreams about the future, he was attractive and easy to be around, and he was passionate about art and always stopped to chat to the homeless. He cared about the world. A person was like a city. You couldn’t let a few less desirable parts put you off the whole. There may be bits you don’t like, a few dodgy side streets and suburbs, but the good stuff makes it worthwhile.

      He had listened to a lot of annoying podcasts that he thought Nora should listen to, and laughed in a way that grated on her, and gargled loudly with mouthwash. And yes, he hogged the duvet and could occasionally be arrogant in his opinions on art and film and music, but there was nothing overtly wrong with him. Well – now that she thought about it – he’d never been supportive of her music career, and had advised her that being in The Labyrinths and signing a music deal would be bad for her mental health, and that her brother was being a bit selfish. But at the time she had viewed that not so much as a red flag but a green one. Her thinking was: he cared, and it was nice to have someone who cared, who wasn’t bothered about fame and superficialities, and could help navigate the waters of life. And so when he had asked her to marry him, in the cocktail bar on the top floor of the Oxo Tower, she had agreed and maybe she had always been right to agree.

      He stepped forward into the room, placed his pint down momentarily and was now on his phone, looking up better pub quiz questions.

      She wondered how much he had drunk tonight. She wondered if the dream of owning a pub had really been a dream of drinking an endless supply of alcohol.

      ‘What is the name of a twenty-sided polygon?’

      ‘I don’t know,’ Nora lied, not wanting to risk a similar reaction to the one she’d received a moment ago.

      He put the phone in his pocket.

      ‘We did well, though. They all drank loads tonight. Not bad for a Tuesday. Things are looking up. I mean, there’s something to tell the bank tomorrow. Maybe they’ll give us an extension on the loan . . .’

      He stared at the beer in his glass, swilled it around a little, then downed it.

      ‘Though I’ve got to tell A.J. to change the lunch menu. No one in Littleworth wants to eat candied beetroot and broad bean salad and corn cakes. This isn’t pissing Fitzrovia. And I know they’re going down well, but I think those wines you chose aren’t worth it. Especially the Californian ones.’

      ‘Okay.’

      He turned and looked behind him. ‘Where’s the board?’

      ‘What?’

      ‘The chalkboard. Thought you’d brought it in?’

      So that was what she had been outside for.

      ‘No. No. I’m going to do it now.’

      ‘Thought I saw you go out.’

      Nora smiled away her nerves. ‘Yes, well, I did. I had to . . . I was worried about our cat. Volts. Voltaire. I couldn’t find him so I went outside to look for him and then I found him, didn’t I?’

      Dan was back behind the bar, pouring himself a scotch.

      He seemed to sense she was judging him. ‘This is only my third. Fourth, maybe. It’s quiz night. You know I get nervous doing the compering. And it helps me be funny. And I was funny, don’t you reckon?’

      ‘Yes. Very funny. Total funniness.’

      His face fell into a serious mode. ‘I saw you talking to Erin. What did she say?’

      Nora wasn’t sure how best to answer this. ‘Oh, nothing much. The usual stuff. You know Erin.’

      ‘The usual stuff? I didn’t think you’d ever spoken to her before.’

      ‘I meant the usual stuff that people say. Not what Erin says. Usual people stuff . . .’

      ‘How’s Will doing?’

      ‘Er, really well,’ Nora guessed. ‘He says hi.’

      Dan’s eyes popped wide with surprise. ‘Really?’

      Nora had no idea what to say. Maybe Will was a baby. Maybe Will was in a coma. ‘Sorry, no, he didn’t say hi. Sorry, I’m not thinking. Anyway, I’ll . . . go and get the board.’

      She put the cat down on the floor and headed back out. This time she noticed something she had missed on entering.

      A framed newspaper article from the Oxford Times with a picture of Nora and Dan standing outside the Three Horseshoes. Dan had his arm around her. He was wearing a suit she had never seen before and she was in a smart dress she would never have worn (she rarely wore dresses) in her original life.

      PUB OWNERS MAKE DREAM A REALITY

      They had, according to the article, bought the pub cheaply and in a neglected state and then renovated it with a mix of a modest inheritance (Dan’s) and savings and bank loans. The article presented a success story, though it was two years old.

      She stepped outside, wondering whether a life could really be judged from just a few minutes after midnight on a Tuesday. Or maybe that was all you needed.

      The wind was picking up. Standing out on that quiet village street, the gusts pushed the board a little along the path, nearly toppling it over. Before she picked it up, she felt a buzz from a phone in her pocket. She hadn’t realised it was in there. She pulled it out. A text message from Izzy.

      She noticed that her wallpaper was a photo of herself and Dan somewhere hot.

      She unlocked the phone using facial recognition and opened the message. It was a photo of a whale rising high out of the ocean, the white spray soaking the air like a burst of champagne. It was a wonderful photo and just seeing it caused her to smile.

      Izzy was typing.

      Another message appeared:

      This was one of the pics I took yesterday from the boat.

      And another:

      Humpback mother

      Then another photo: two whales this time, their backs breaking the water.

      With calf

      The last message also included emojis of whales and waves.

      Nora felt a warm glow. Not just from the pictures, which were indisputably lovely, but from the contact with Izzy.

      When Nora backed out of her wedding to Dan, Izzy had insisted that she come to Australia with her.

      They’d mapped it all out, a plan to live near Byron Bay and get jobs on one of the whale-watching boat cruises.

      They had shared lots of clips of humpback whales in anticipation of this new adventure. But then Nora had wobbled and backed out. Just like she had backed out of a swimming career, and a band, and a wedding. But unlike those other things, there hadn’t even been a reason. Yes, she had started working at String СКАЧАТЬ