Living With Contradiction. Esther de Waal

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       Preface

      It is very fascinating to see how, in the ten years since this book was first written, increasing numbers of lay people like myself are turning to the monastic tradition. Here they find support on their Christian journey which they often fail to find in the institutional church, where parish and diocesan life can be extremely busy, and seemingly lacking in any sort of contemplative focus. ‘The church is getting a bad press – except for her monasteries.’ This comment, which I read recently in an American national newspaper, shows how widespread this feeling is. Debates on political issues, on fund-raising or administrative concerns seem to drown out the voice of prayer.

      Why is it that 1500 years after it was first written, so many thousands of people today are reading the Rule of St Benedict? I believe that it is because this short sixth-century monastic text, coming as it does from St Benedict's own experience of life, can still bring support, inspiration and challenge. His Rule is simply a practical manual to give guidance to a family of brothers, an extended household, who had to earn their living, who were concerned with food, with the care of visitors or the sick, with the upkeep of buildings and land, while recognizing the need for time to read and study – and yet determined to make prayer the central focus, the one priority of their lives. St Benedict helped them to bring balance and rhythm into a life whose pressures and demands were remarkably similar to our own.

      Balance and moderation are commonly regarded as the hallmarks of Benedictine spirituality. Yet it is vital, if we are to recognize the power and the influence of the Rule, not to see this as anything mediocre, lukewarm or middle of the road. There is nothing safe or easy in holding a central position between opposites. It asks me to be fully alive, constantly moving forward, even at those times when I am feeling as though I am only holding on precariously. The way of St Benedict is the way of the Gospel. As Christ came to make us fully alive, to open eyes and ears and hearts to the fullness of life that is on offer, so too is the Rule vibrant and infused with energy.

      At the heart of the Gospel, as at the heart of Christ's own life, of course there is paradox. So living with the Rule of St Benedict means living with paradox, with contradiction. This is something for which I am profoundly grateful, and that gratitude increases as the years go on. Life does not add up: the longer I live the more that is brought home to me. It was not the message that I received from my parents or one that was taught to me by any educational establishment as I was growing up. Nevertheless I think, looking back, that this is probably one of the most useful lessons that one can hear. It is curiously liberating to realize that I shall go on until the day of my death trying to hold differing things together and that the task (for which I need all the help that I can get) must be to do it creatively, so that the tensions may become life-giving.

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