THE COMPLETE WORKS OF ÉMILE ZOLA. Эмиль Золя

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      And he was off, hurrying away, as he had no wish that his friend should accompany him.

      Such a flood of thought passed through his brain that he arrived at the rue d’Amsterdam without any consciousness of the road he had taken. He was full of the past and future. He saw once again Madame de Rionne dying; he followed with distinctness month by month the events of the years that had passed since then, and at the same time he sought to foresee the events which were about to follow.

      One figure stood out supreme in his meditation — that of Jeanne — Jeanne, quite a little girl, such as he had left her on the gravel path in the boulevard des Invalides, and he felt a scorching flame in his breast, a burning affection in his heart.

      This little girl belonged to him. She was his as an inheritance of love, he explained to himself. He was quite astonished that she had been stolen from him for so long a time. He rebelled, then was appeased when he came to remember that she was to be restored to him. She would be his, wholly his. He would love her as he had loved her mother, worship her as a saint; and wild notions rushed through his brain, and the madness of self-sacrifice began to fill his whole being. His love was overflowing; it suffocated him. During all these years he had firmly repressed the inmost feelings of his heart; he had made himself a mere machine; he had waited coldly, passively, without a word. The awakening had come — a terrible awakening of passion. A hidden, unceasing work had been going on in his heart; his faculty for love, from the want of expansion, had been intensified to the highest degree, and so he had come to have one fixed idea. His affection had become an exaggeration; he could no longer think of Jeanne without being tempted to worship her image.

      Suddenly he found himself in Monsieur Tellier’s private room, without knowing how he came there. He heard a servant saying to him: “Please to be seated; Monsieur will be with you directly,” and he sat down trying to keep calm.

      Those few minutes by himself did him good. If he had found his future master there he would have stammered through nervousness and agitation. He got up and took a turn round the study, examining the library and the many different objects with which the articles of furniture and the bureau were loaded. All these things, although luxurious, seemed to him in very poor taste. On a stand there was a pretty statuette in white marble of Liberty, which Daniel was inclined to take for a Venus, till he noticed the Phrygian cap which was coquettishly set on her curly hair.

      The young man was examining with curiosity this object, wondering what it did there, when he heard the sound of a slight cough.

      Monsieur Tellier came in. He was a big, stout man, with round, bright eyes. He carried his head erect. When speaking he gesticulated with his right hand always in the same manner.

      Daniel briefly explained to him who he was and what he had come about.

      “Oh, well,” he answered, “I have heard of you, and I think we shall be able to come to an understanding. Pray take a seat.” And he himself sat down in the armchair in front of the bureau.

      Monsieur Tellier was far from being a bad man, and he had given proof at times of much intelligence. When certain topics were touched on, three or four fixed ideas wandered through his brain like those little dolls which turn round in Barbary organs. When these ideas slept his conversation revealed a blank in his brain that was perfectly appalling.

      He had only one vice — that of thinking himself a profound politician. He laid down the law in politics with the greatest gravity. He would have ruled States as doorkeepers in large mansions rule their lodgers — repeating the same phrases, wrapping up his few ideas in a deluge of words. Nevertheless he was thoroughly sincere, and lived at peace in his folly.

      From childhood he had prated of the people and “Liberty” with overwhelming solemnity. Later, when in full prosperity and having under him crowds of workmen, he went on with his philanthropical discourses, never dreaming that he would do far better to talk less and raise his workmen’s wages. But the people and “Liberty” were to him abstract things that must be loved platonically.

      When he amassed a colossal fortune he set his mind on living only for that which afforded him the greatest pleasure. He managed to be made a “deputy” (member of Parliament). He experienced a childlike joy when he repaired to the Chamber. He listened religiously to the great speeches, the long empty sentences that he loved, and every night when he got home he felt quite sure that he had just saved France from utter ruin! In his own eyes he acquired a considerable importance. He thought he was, so to speak, the necessary bulwark against the invasion of tyranny. He was astonished that the people as he passed through the streets did not bow before him as before the father of his country.

      Sometimes he did make a speech in the Legislative Assembly, reading endless discourses. On one occasion he had gone into an industrial question, and he handled it very well, for there he was in his element. But his vanity dreamt of grand discussions of patriotic principles, and then he lost himself miserably.

      His wife did all she could to prevent him from entering the Chamber. Her only ambition being luxury, she would have preferred that her husband should keep quite away from public life. But he held his ground, and informed her that he left her full liberty to pursue her own pleasures, and therefore, for his part, he intended to amuse himself as he liked, and do as he pleased. So they each went their own ways. His wife being exasperated at his obstinacy decked herself out in most eccentric toilettes, and threw her money about in all directions, while the husband declaimed against luxury, eulogised the wholesome simplicity of republics, and displayed the empty rhetoric of his pet subject — the good of the masses. When you came to examine into these two, the wife and husband, their follies were, after all, about on a par. From the moment he became a deputy Monsieur Tellier’s ambition knew no bounds, and there was nothing he desired more than to be called an “author.” He undertook a vast work on political economy, in which he was very soon completely at sea; and it was at this time that he felt the need of a secretary.

      Daniel showed himself modest and willing. He accepted all the conditions Monsieur Tellier chose to impose upon him; but really he barely listened to them, for he was all anxiety to be established in the house. Just as a complete understanding was on the point of being arrived at, the deputy said:

      “Ah! I was forgetting, since we shall have to live together there must be no misunderstanding between us. You are quite free to believe in what you like, and I would not ask you to make the least concession to your conscience. But what are your political opinions?”

      “My opinions!” echoed Daniel, bewildered; “oh! liberal; I could not be more so,” the young man hastened to answer, happily remembering the marble statue, and he turned instinctively towards the pedestal on which it stood.

      “Have you seen it?” said Monsieur Tellier, much struck. He rose and took the little image in his fingers, speaking very emphatically. “It is the great Mother, the Human Virgin whose office is to regenerate the nation.”

      A look of perplexity came into Daniel’s face, and he was very much astonished to hear such big words made use of with respect to so small a thing. The deputy gazed lovingly at the piece of marble with the look of a big child playing with a doll.

      It happened one day, long before, that his plaything disappeared, and he was searching for it several hours; it was Jeanne, who having come out of the convent for a holiday, had taken it and was thus nursing Liberty in her little arms, thinking she was nursing a doll.

      Gazing at the deeply-moved expression of Monsieur Tellier’s face, Daniel saw clearly that this little image was, to him, an exact representation of the goddess in her strength and power. That Liberty which he clamoured for so loudly was СКАЧАТЬ