The Strength Of Desire. Alison Fraser

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СКАЧАТЬ he agreed, ‘probably not…Is that why you didn’t come to my mother’s funeral?’

      He really hasn’t changed, Hope thought as he directed another blunt question at her. He was so different from Jack. It had been ‘anything for an easy life’ with Jack, but Guy had always met things head-on.

      Well, this time, Hope decided, he wasn’t going to walk all over her. Her heart might still be racing but her head was clear.

      ‘No, I didn’t think you’d want it,’ she responded sharply.

      His eyes narrowed assessingly. ‘No, you’re right. I wouldn’t,’ he acknowledged, then added on a note of accusation, ‘You came all the same, though, didn’t you?’

      ‘What do you mean?’ Hope’s face went a shade of pink, betraying her.

      ‘I returned to the graveyard after the service,’ he informed her. ‘I saw you.’

      ‘Oh.’ Hope couldn’t deny it.

      She had kept in touch with Caroline Delacroix even after her split with Jack. Occasionally the older woman would call on her when she was in London. She had come to see Maxine, her only grandchild, but Hope knew she’d never mentioned these visits to her sons.

      ‘Her solicitor telephoned me,’ Hope went on to explain, ‘saying it was your mother’s wish I should be there. So I was…sort of.’

      She’d gone down by train to Penzance, then waited until the actual service was over, before going to the graveside. She’d placed an anonymous wreath among the others and said a tearful goodbye to a nice lady.

      Hope frowned as she thought of him watching her. What had he felt? Anger, she supposed, that she’d had the nerve to appear.

      Guy watched her now, much as he would have done then, with contempt in those wintry grey eyes. ‘The solicitor meant for you to come to the house—for the willreading…’ He left the sentence hanging in the air, waiting for her reaction.

      Hope didn’t rise to the bait. She hadn’t expected Caroline to leave her anything, and, if she had, Hope would have heard of it by now. It had been almost two years since Caroline’s death.

      ‘Didn’t you ever wonder if she left you something?’ Guy added at her silence.

      ‘Why should she?’ Hope shrugged. ‘I wasn’t her responsibility.’

      ‘No, you were Jack’s.’ Grey eyes scanned the room, taking in the state of the kitchen.

      Hope wasn’t ashamed of her home. It was small and the furniture shabby, but she’d done her best and it was comfortable. The kitchen table and chairs were old and marked, but they were made of solid pine. She had no money for new units but she’d splashed out on some good tiling and wallpaper which she’d hung herself.

      But Guy Delacroix was hardly impressed. With a luxury flat in Truro as well as the magnificence of Heron’s View, a terraced house in Putney probably seemed one step from poverty to him.

      ‘You didn’t get much of a settlement from Jack, did you?’ he finally remarked.

      She stared back incredulously. He dared say that to her? ‘Well, you saw to that, didn’t you?’ she retorted bitterly.

      His brows rose, feigning surprise. ‘Perhaps you’d like to explain that remark.’

      Hope’s lips pursed. He knew well enough. ‘Come on. You were the one who advised Jack how little he could get away with. Did you think he wouldn’t tell me?’

      This time there wasn’t a flicker of reaction. Reading anything from Guy’s face had always been difficult, and nothing had changed.

      ‘Jack told you I advised him on your settlement,’ he stated flatly, rephrasing what she’d just said.

      Hope nodded. ‘Don’t deny it’ she snapped back.

      ‘All right, I won’t,’ he agreed coolly, his eyes fixed on her face.

      Hope refused to be intimidated, and stared back. It was a mistake. She saw reflected in his eyes too many memories, and for a moment felt, as she had all those years ago, that curious mixture of attraction and fear.

      She turned away, and started to busy herself in the kitchen, talking to hide her confusion. ‘I’ll ask Maxine if she wants to go to the funeral. If she does, I’ll let you know…Now, if that’s all, I have to make tea.’

      She ran water into a pan, and banged it noisily on to the cooker, then tried to light the gas with a sparking device. If there was a technique, she seemed to have lost it. She clicked the sparker ineffectively. The smell of gas filled the room.

      ‘The flint’s gone,’ she was coolly informed.

      It did nothing for Hope’s humour. She rounded on him, with an idea of telling him to get lost, and they semi-collided as he reached past her to turn off the gas. She grabbed at his arms as she threatened to overbalance, then wished she hadn’t. He held her for a moment, and his touch was like a burn on her bare arms. She flinched visibly, and he let her go, but only so that he could turn off the gas. He didn’t move away and she was effectively trapped by his proximity.

      Hope wasn’t frightened of him. She was frightened of betraying herself. Over a decade, but nothing had changed.

      He felt her body tremble. His eyes caught hers, trying to see into her very soul.

      Appalled by her own weakness, Hope forced herself to remember all of it. Not just the love, but what followed. The hurt. The loss. The ultimate pain of betrayal.

      It didn’t seem to make any difference: her body continued to tremble at his nearness.

      It made no difference to him either, as his hands began to caress her bare skin.

      ‘All this time, and nothing’s changed.’ He spoke the words in her ear as they stood there, caught by the past.

      She shook her head and breathed, ‘I hate you,’ meaning it.

      ‘And I hate you,’ he breathed back, clearly meaning it too.

      But he was right. Nothing had changed. Desire was as strong as hate, and just as destructive.

      She told herself to break free. She tried to; he held her easily. Not just with his hands but with his eyes. It was strange how such cold grey eyes could be so mesmeric.

      ‘Mum…Mum?’ Maxine stood in the doorway, looking from one to the other, unsure what she was witnessing.

      At last Hope broke free, almost leaping back from Guy as she caught sight of her daughter. ‘I didn’t realise you were there,’ she said unnecessarily.

      Maxine said nothing, but stared hostilely at Guy. He didn’t seem to notice, greeting her with a peculiarly soft, ‘Hello, Maxine.’

      Maxine continued to stare, and Hope stepped in, saying, ‘Maxine, this is your uncle—’

      ‘Guy,’ Maxine completed for her mother. ‘I remember. СКАЧАТЬ