The Lover’s Dictionary: A Love Story in 185 Definitions. David Levithan

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      “I love dining alfresco,” you said, and I laughed a little.

      “What?” you asked.

      And I said, “We’re not naked, silly.”

      Now it was your turn to laugh.

      “That’s not what it means,” you told me. “And anyway, don’t you feel naked now?”

      You fell quiet, gestured for me to listen. The sound of the woods, the feel of the air. The wine settling in my thoughts. The sky, so present. And you, watching me take it all in.

      Naked to the world. The world, naked to us.

      aloof, adj.

      It has always been my habit, ever since junior high school, to ask that question:

      “What are you thinking?”

      It is always an act of desperation, and I keep on asking, even though I know it will never work the way I want it to.

      anachronism, n.

      “I’ll go get the horse and buggy,” you’ll say.

      And I’ll say, “But I thought we were taking the hovercraft!”

      anthem, n.

      It was our sixth (maybe seventh) date. I had cooked and you had insisted on doing the dishes. You wouldn’t even let me dry. Then, when you were done, smelling of suds, you sat back down and I poured you another glass of cheapish wine. You put your legs in my lap and slouched as if we’d just had a feast for thousands and you’d been the only chambermaid on duty to clean it up.

      There was a pause. I was still scared by every gap in our conversation, fearing that this was it, the point where we had nothing left to say. I was still trying to impress you, and I still wanted to be impressed by you, so I could pass along pieces of your impressiveness in stories to my friends, convincing myself this was possible.

      “If you were a country,” I said, “what would your national anthem be?”

      I meant a pre-existing song — “What a Wonderful World” or “Que Sera, Sera” or something to make it a joke, like “Hey Ya!” (“I would like, more than anything else, for my nation to be shaken like a Polaroid picture.”)

      But instead you said, “It would have to be a blues song.” And then you looked up at the ceiling, closed your eyes, and began to sing a blues riff:

      Nuh-nah-nuh-nuh

      My work makes me tired

      Nuh-nah-nuh-nuh

      But I gotta pay my rent

      Nuh-nah-nuh-nuh

      My parents never loved me

      Nuh-nah-nuh-nuh

      Left all my emotions bent

      Nuh-nah-nuh-nuh

      I know what I’m here for

      Nuh-nah-nuh-nuh

      Make your dishes so clean

      Nuh-nah-nuh-nuh

      Just be careful what you wish for

      Nuh-nah-nuh-nuh

      ’Cause most my shit is unseen

      Nuh-nah-nuh-nuh

      So many men

      Nuh-nah-nuh-nuh

      Fall into my trap

      Nuh-nah-nuh-nuh

      But, boy, I gotta tell you

      Nuh-nah-nuh-nuh

      You might rewrite that map

      Nuh-nah-nuh-nuh

      Because I’m a proud nation

      Nuh-nah-nuh-nuh

      It’s written here on my flag

      Nuh-nah-nuh-nuh

      It’s a fucked-up world, boy

      Nuh-nah-nuh-nuh

      So you better make me laugh

      Then you stopped and opened your eyes to me. I applauded.

      “Don’t sit there clapping,” you said. “Rub this blues singer’s feet.”

      You never asked what my anthem was. But that’s okay, because I still don’t know what I’d answer.

      antiperspirant, n.

      “There is nothing attractive about smelling like baking powder,” I said.

      “Baking soda,” you corrected.

      “So if I want to make a pound cake, I can throw some butter, flour, and sugar into your armpit — ”

      “Why are we having this conversation? Remind me again?”

      “You no longer smell the yeasty goodness that you apply under your arms, because you are completely used to it. I, however, feel like I am dating a Whole Foods.”

      “Fine,” you said.

      I was surprised. “ ‘Fine’?”

      “Let the record show, I have stepped onto the slippery slope of compromise in the name of promoting peace and harmony. There will be a ceremonial burning of the deodorant in ten minutes. I hope it’s flammable.”

      “It’s just that I really hate it,” I told you.

      “Well, I hate your toe hair.”

      “I’ll wear socks,” I promised. “All the time. Even in the shower.”

      “Just be warned,” you said. “Someday you’ll ask me to give up something I really love, and then it’s going to get ugly.”

      antsy, adj.

      I swore I would never take you to the opera again.

      arcane, adj.

      It was Joanna who noticed it first. We were over at her house for dinner, and she said something about being able to see the woman across the street doing yoga in the mornings, and how strange it looked when you were watching it from a distance.

      “So how is Miss Torso doing?” you asked.

      And I said, “Perhaps we should ask the pianist.”

      Joanna СКАЧАТЬ