What We Left Behind. Robin Talley

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      Then I remember my door is propped open. Everyone else’s doors were propped open and I figured it was the thing to do.

      The guy grins at me. I try to smile back.

      “Hey,” he says. “They told me there was a blond girl in this room.”

      “They told you right,” I say.

      “A bunch of us are going to a comedy club. Floor trip. We’re meeting downstairs in five.”

      “Okay, cool.”

      The guy leaves.

      Perfect. A distraction!

      Wait. Can I really just...leave? What about Toni? What about what I did?

      I should really just sit here for the rest of the night. I don’t deserve distractions.

      My phone buzzes. Another text from Toni.

      My roommate and I are going to some burger place. What r u doing tonight?

      Oh. Well, I guess if Toni’s going out, it’s OK for me to go out, too. I text back about the comedy show. Toni writes back right away.

      Don’t forget ur pepper spray!

      I smile and respond,

      You too!

      That’s a joke. Toni’s maid Consuela is awesome but also kind of scary. She makes Toni and Audrey carry pepper spray around with them whenever they go outside after dark. She stands in the door and yells after them, “Don’t forget your pepper spray!” It gives the muggers an unfair advantage, really. They can all probably hear her from miles around. They’ll know to be prepared.

      I stare down at my phone screen and breathe in and out until I’m sure I’m not going to cry. Then I go to the mirror and brush the fattest tangles out of my hair. I look around the room one more time—at my side, with the bare twin bed and plain wood desk and half-empty boxes everywhere, and the other side, where my roommate’s neatly made-up bed sits under black lace tapestry hangings and the desk is decorated with pretty purple candles. I decide it isn’t worth trying to clean up my side. I don’t want to miss the group leaving, and it will take me hours just to make a dent in this mess. I head out into the hall, locking the door behind me, and take the elevator down fourteen floors to the lobby.

      When I get outside the dorm, a dozen people are standing around the sidewalk, waiting to go. We’re all freshmen, so no one knows each other yet, and everyone’s checking out everyone else. You can tell what they’re all thinking:

      This is it. This is the only chance I will ever have to establish my college social status. If I do not immediately bond with the coolest people here, I will be friendless and pathetic until graduation, and I will whimper alone in my dorm room every night.

      I sit down on a bench to text Toni again.

      A guy standing a few feet away lights a cigarette. Smoke gets in my face. I wave my hand around to blow it away. The guy doesn’t notice. He’s cute, but it’s the scruffy kind of cute, with messy hair, a bored expression and a pair of bowling shoes poking out from under his khaki pants.

      A girl across from me is looking at the guy, too. She’s rocking on her heels, about to pounce.

      It’s now or never, I imagine the girl thinking. I will be the first girl here to approach the mysterious cute boy. He will think I am bold and intriguing, and will immediately want to make out with me.

      She walks toward him, smile in place. I try to catch her eye and signal her to stop—this guy is very obviously gay—but she’s too fast.

      “Hi,” she says to the guy. “Excuse me. I was wondering. I couldn’t help but notice. Those shoes, with the stripe, that you’re wearing. Are those bowling shoes?”

      She’s doing that thing where you’re nervous, so you use more words than you need to. I feel bad for her.

      “Yes,” the guy says.

      “Because I’ve been wanting to get bowling shoes,” the girl says. “Where’d you find them?”

      The guy exhales a long puff of cigarette smoke. I cough.

      “I slept with the little old man,” the guy says.

      The girl blinks at him. “Uh. What?”

      I feel even worse for the girl, but it’s hard to keep from laughing.

      “Who?” she asks.

      “The old man,” the guy says. “At the bowling alley. With the foot spray. His name was Gerald. Charming fellow.”

      “Oh,” the girl says.

      The guy looks at her.

      “Um, okay,” she says. “Well, I guess I’ll see you around.”

      The girl walks away. Probably to give up on the whole comedy-club idea and slink back to her room for the next four years.

      When she’s far enough away, I laugh out loud.

      The bowling shoes guy turns around. His lips twitch.

      “What’s funny?” he asks.

      “That was so mean, what you did to that girl!” I say, still smiling.

      He frowns. “It was just a joke.”

      “Oh, come on. How was she supposed to come back from that?”

      He frowns some more. “I don’t know. I didn’t think about that.”

      “Where did you get those shoes?” I ask him.

      “A vintage shop down on Canal. Are you into vintage clothes?” He looks down at my Martha Jefferson Academy for Young Women Tennis Team T-shirt. “By that I mean real vintage, not some ancient crap you dug out of the bottom of your girlfriend’s closet.”

      I clutch at my heart. “Your wit, it burns me.”

      The guy sits down next to me. “Hi. I’m Carroll.”

      I laugh some more. I can’t believe how good laughing feels after everything that’s happened. “No way.”

      “Yes way.” He pulls out his wallet and shows me his New Jersey driver’s license. It says Carroll Ostrowski next to a photo of him looking twelve years old and even scruffier than he does now.

      “Little-known fact,” he says. “In 1932, Carroll was the hundred and seventy-third most popular name for boy babies in the United States.”

      “What happened after that?”

      “It fell off the chart thirty years later.” Carroll smiles, showing off extremely prominent dimples. “My folks fancied themselves eccentrics.”

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